The same

Haha, I guess I'm not much different from everyone out there. =p

Human

I'm not strong. Stab me, I'll bleed. Hurt me, and I'll cry.

Far far away.

Trapped. Been hell for me all over again these few days. Everytime I try to go more, it just hurts more. To back out, I don't have the courage to. Now I'm stucked in the middle of nowhere. Being oblivious and ignorant to myself isn't helping.

You can say I'm having one of those nights again. Maybe coz this is the time I can't find things to occupy myself with. And my mind just drifts back to the same damn heartache that's been haunting me ever since... ever since then.

Trust.I wish it can be easy.

"Everyone has their dream. But some just don't have the drive."

Endless Road

The truth is tearing up my heart
I can't recognise this place
The endless road without a stop sign
Can't even find a stranger this time

Why am I still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there's nothing left to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Everytime I ask if this would be the last

Why am I still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather
But it just draws me deeper
How do I get out of this
I think~ I never will

A crystal forming in the eye
Maybe this would be the last
The winding path down my face
Till I begin to taste the bitterness inside

Why am I still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there's nothing left to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Everytime I ask if this would be the last

Why am I still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather
But it just draws me deeper
How do I get out of this
I think~ I never will

I never will

Regrets.

There are many things I regret doing. And many I regret not doing.

One Last Dance

I 'rewarded' myself with a VCD today :p Haha, it's an old film called One Last Dance. It's quite nice. But I don't think someone who has never tried dance would understand it fully. They would never know the hardships dancers go through, and the passion inside them.

Haha, anyway, it's nice lah, that's what I wanna say. :p Have a nice day y'all.

Dementor?

I don't know why, but depression comes to me every night. I should sleep early and just forget everything.

Empty.

I guess it's just one of those nights... depressed. It sucks living with a feeling of emptiness. I don't know why but ever since that happened I cannot stand being alone. Gotta learn to be more independent -.-"

Haha, having fried rice now. Cooked it myself :P But my mum was guiding me, again. It's so hard to remember what to do first. The sausages, the egg, the rice, the crabmeat, the salt, the 'jiang qin' (I forgot what it is in eng :p) So confusing... Luckily it still tasted alright. But if you guys don't see me tomorrow you'll probably know what's the cause of it.

I hope it's just one of those nights. Coz I ain't feelin so good right now. Hate my loser life. Maybe if I work really hard, eveything would work out fine. To be cold... I'm not one who's bold enough to do that. I don't know how to just walk away. Not making much sense again.

Peace y'all. Oh ya, by the way, Lasalle's having an informal showing in school this coming friday, at H102 on the first floor. Starts at 6. Do come watch if you have got nothing else better to do :P Zu You will be appearing in a short 'animal-like' routine, Loretta's piece, and a short rhythm performance. Wish him luck!

Next Time.

I look at the man in the mirror and I don't like what I see. The way he looks. The way he behaves. The way he thinks. Time for a change.

Somehow, it makes me feel a little better to voice my sadness here. So this page is soon becoming a dull one about a boy writing about miserable things. Hmmm, maybe I should do this; makes it easier to keep things to myself at other times. The world doesn't have to see this side of me. To the peeps who do come here, I thank you for allowing me to share this with you. Besides, nobody likes a depressed, anti-social person.

Somehow I got to make it on my own. I have to. Slowly but surely, I'm fading...

Next time.

Keeping It Real.

Reached home at 11 plus. I just happened to switch on the tv and there's a movie on HBO. "Hustle and Flow". Find it inspiring.

"Everybody's gotta have a dream."

Yea, but that's just what they are. Dreams.

Way Over My Head

Don't really know how to describe it. I just feel very "mixed up" recently. And it isn't a good feeling -.-"

Have a good day everyone.

Way Back Into Love

Haha, just happen to listen to this song on the computer. Here are bits and pieces of the lyrics from the song...

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end.

Have a nice day everyone.

Alive?

Life isn't fair. I don't have my fair share of ups and downs. What a bad way to start off writing. Been a jerk these few days. Hope I didn't bother everyone too much. I still am now. Sorry. I'm gonna break soon...

Was feeling bad the whole day yesterday. I really can't do this kind of choreography. I'm not that experienced yet. Now I don't how to continue with it. Was never a creative person =( In secondary school, it took me almost 20minutes to think of what to write for a composition. What ever happened to my right brain? It's not there maybe or it hasn't ever been used.

Starting to go back to how I was again. I'm certain it's not normal to cry almost every night. Just can't help it. Weak idiot -.-" Yea, they say I just think too much. Then how do you think less? Looking at how my life is going, I feel like sh*t these few days. Can't remember the last time I had some happiness. Now there's nothing left. Depressed. "zi you zi ji neng pang zi ji"

Hate birthdays. It just shows how little friends I have. Those who truly care. That's why I try to do many things for many people. Hoping some day people would do the same for me. Not making any sense here. Nvm.

Once again, ZuYou failed in changing to be a better, independent person. He wished his father could come and scold him, knocking some sense real hard into his hollow good-for-nothing head. Haiz, hopeless people like ZuYou don't last very long.

Oh yes I skipped school today.

Forget all of this.

Nothing to say. What a blue day it is for me today. Actually it's yesterday, technically. Don't know how much more I can endure until I break...

"You're my sunshine =)"
How sweet... ... ... how I wish... ... ...
Too bad.

In the Middle of the Night.

Life's been really tiring these few days. Been crushed by all the assignments given. Hmmm... will take a half-day off next week if there's time =p Hehe..

I realized I don't use my brain as much as I should. Dumb. Talk about "All brawn and no brain". But I'm not really muscular in the first place -.-" That makes me "No brawn and no brain", meaning "useless".

Had a tough dance day today. A**ert Ti*ng fired up quite a few times during contemporary class today. I was even singled out to do one of the exercises. Luckily I wasn't yelled at. Phew! Today is the first time I heard him scolding in full sentences. Last time all I heard is "Shit!", or "Stupid!" Haha... Something "embarassing" happened to me during ballet class today; Shhhh!!! Don't tell anyone... I cried =( Just got fed up of how I can't do ballet... And nobody gives as much a damn about me as the others. I'm on my own, gotta improve faster... :p In movement class, Mr Aaron talk to us more about the 'dark' dance world out there. I hate it when they keep 'complaining', but I'll just keep silent at a corner. It's okay to work at our own suitable pace. But like him, I would very much like to soar up to the sky asap. without causing too much injuries to myself of course :p Life is short, especially a dancer's life.

For a moment or two today, I felt different. I felt I could live my own life again, without you. Haha... is that a good thing or a bad thing? I don't know. My yao's getting worse. Maybe should go see a doctor about it.

Gotta start doing my voice assignments now. Hope I can get at least 3 hours of sleep tonight. Have a nice day y'all.

-.-zzz

Hooray! I finally finsh my Learning and Research assignments. There goes my sleep though -.-zzz Haha, gotta go off to school soon -.-zzzz

Have a nice day y'all -.-zzz

The things that you do...

You're the one who can bring me joy and happiness. You're also the one who can make me sad. You made me shed a thousand tears for you. It's not worth it, but I just can't help it.

Not in a very good mood right now. Haha, when was I ever in a good mood. Stress...

Hope I can do something by the end of this miserable lonely night. I seek comfort from you, but I just can't find any. Shit, I'm going crazy. Need to sleep.

Oh ya, went to watch NAFA's show today. Amazing.

Don't bother.

PEOPLE, DON'T BOTHER READING THIS.

I'm really miserable. I feel that I am useless. I feel that I am hopeless. I feel that I can't get anything done. I feel that things can't be done my way.

No wait... I am useless. I am hopeless. I can't get anything done. Things can't be done my way. Arggg, I suck.

Haha, no use f*cking up. It ain't gonna help at all. Just wanna 'scream' my a*s off somewhere. Guess I need a shoulder to lean on.

When I needed you the most. You weren't there.
Sh*t, a tear almost came out when I typed that. Managed to held it back. Gotta shake this feeling off. It's not gonna do anyone any good.

Good Nite.

Wasting time? Or not?

Alamak! It's almost 3am. I spent the whole night watching dance videos of all kinds on youtube. Saw a lot of "innovative hip hop", smart people =P It kinda scares me how amazing trained dancers can be. It made me realize too how much I still have to work on. At the rate I'm going, I'm never gonna make it big. Oh man, jiayou! *pat on the back.

Haha, I dunno whether I was wasting my time. I am still crushed by all my incomplete assignments. And here I am still not using time to do it. What the heck am I thinking? I feel that time's still far ahead of me (slow down lah! -.-")

Anyway, should get some sleep. Will need lots of energy; having "Shaolin" modern dance tml. Wahaha!

I really wanna be good. But sometimes I just can't seem to put in enough hardwork. I wanna change the man in the mirror.

Nothing I could do.

I don't know why but I can't bring myself to write long long posts recently. I do write a lot for my journal assignments. Hmmm, maybe I should post those assignments here. But who cares anyway, I realize only a few people come to this page. Maybe just one person. Haha...

There's really a lot I wanna say. Maybe I'll write about it next time. Not in a good mood right now. No, it's not about what I've always been depressing about. It's just me. I hate myself coz I'm not a person of good character. I've always respect people with good character, I don't give a damn about successful people. But I realized I'm an asshole myself. I try to change, I really do, but I can't

Give me more time. Dad, you really are a successful person. You worked hard from the bottom up and I fucking well know, coz that's what you keep saying. You did many things well and gave us a lot. But there's something you should know; you fail as a father, my father. Dad, I hope you'll never read this. Coz this is the only thing I have to say to you: FUCK YOU

Maybe I'm just really angry right now and don't mean it. Or maybe I do. Shit. I'll change, for you and you but not you. Dang, I should remove this post.

Why are you so sad?

Wrong place at the wrong time.

I'm using the computer inside the green room of the esplanade now =p Haha, wanted to reach extra early to mentally prepare myself, but I only arrive half an hour earlier. And here I am typing some useless stuff when I should be warming up for the company class starting at 2. (-.-)zzz

Doing my first show for this piece tonight. I'm kinda nervous. It has been performed by the lasalle graduates before. I know there's no way I can do better than the previous dancer who did this role. But hell, I'm gonna do my best of course. Haha, wish me luck!

Peace y'all. (^(oo)^)

Stupid dream...

I had a dream last night. And when I woke up, it just makes me "sick". I thought I've gotten better already. But these few days I'm starting to be like I used to again, depressed. Now I'm back to being a good-for-nothing loser. -.-" Alamak!

I'm late, gotta bounce. See ya.

Just a thought.

Was showering just now and this came into my mind; I find that I'm good at disappointing people, especially myself.

I'm not happy. And I can't remember the last time I truly was.

Mentioned earlier that I won't post anymore complains. You know what? I lied... =p Wahaha!!! Sorry ;P

Thursday Morning.

I just happen to pass by this page. And when I listened to the song playing... wow, I really enjoy listening to this song =p I don't know the lyrics though, but the whole song just seems so sad =(

Been kinda busy these few days. My whole body's aching all over. But when time comes, the so called "en-dolphins" will ease my pain. Haha, I still sucked though -.-" No pain, no gain..;p That's what you have to keep in mind when stretching.

I really wanna do something good, I wanna be good. But so far it's not working out, so hard!!! *Sigh... Sometimes I wish I was smart. Haha, I'm kinda glad everyone doesn't expect much from a 'boy' like me. Gives me less stress. I look at those talented/gifted dancers and I see how tiring it is for them to live up to themselves. But they can all do it though, they did.

I better go find something else to do other than sitting here typing all this nonsensical(did I spell that right?) stuff. DON'T GIVE UP! When life turns its back on you, just smile and walk on... ... ... Peace y'all.

I wish...

Sometimes it isn't easy.


Was it something I said to make you turn away
To make you walk away and leave me cold
If I could just find a way, to make it so that you
were right here, right now...

I've been sitting here

can't get you off my mind

I try my best to be a man and be strong

I drive myself insane wishing I could touch your face

But the truth remains that you're gone.

Gone. You're gone.

Good luck to everyone for the upcoming shows. Stay confident! =)

Gone for so long...

Haven't been updating this page. I don't think I will. Coz everytime I do you'll see me complaning my a*s off here. So unless I have something else to post. I'll rather not write something here. Haha, and I'm kinda busy too.

I've always said I wanted to change. I can't remember how many times I told myself that already. Everytime I thought I am becoming a better person I never did. Let's hope this time I'll really succeed. Maybe then will you see something in me.

To the world out there, please don't give up on me. Peace y'all

This phrase came into my mind a few days ago. Thought it sounded funny and rude so I'll just write it here anyway =p Hope I don't offend anyone.
"Life's a bitch. Give it a shot."

B.U.S.Y

Busy busy... Got lots of stuff to deal with. Seems like my posts are getting shorter and shorter -.-"

To all my friends out there... Cheer up! Smile! Peace y'all.

A Shattered Heart.

Something's terribly wrong with me. And it's tearing me apart.

Sometimes I wish...

Never have.

I hate myself.

Start that engine, dude.

30th September is coming soon... And I still got nothing. What should I do? Anything would be better than nothing. -.-" Dang

'The depth of life will dim my temptation to live for you.'
Haha, just a line inside the song. Have a good day y'all.

Can't help it.

Been reading harry potter recently. Seems like I came close with a dementor. =p

I feel like shit. I really do. Why is this happening. Chocolate ain't helping at all. Haha...

The world keeps going and it keeps on spinning, leaving me behind. Alone.

there and back again.

Oh no, it's starting all over again. Wish me luck

Peace.

Oh No...

Something is wrong with me.

S.T.R.E.S.S

Haha, amendments to the previous post. Ain't gonna do Lip Gloss anymore. No time, also because I suck? Will just stick to the other two songs. Oh no! It's not even complete yet... and there's still a lot to work on, formations and maybe also another set of choreo? Coz it didn't look really great with just 8 peeps dancing the same thing in the cenre. Oh well... And auditions on this coming saturday. Last day for them to practise tomorrow. It's gonna be a tight competition. Although it's a concert. Dang, I HATE working under stress. "stress makes or breaks a man" It breaks me.

Performing 'Small River Sweet Water' this sunday. Haha, it's not the real name, just a lame direct translation =p (Xiao He Tang Shui). Mdm Leow wants us(the guys) to cut our hair short to look more student-like since we're performing under RS. No way am I gonna cut it short. Hell no.. =p Will try using hair clips and pins to 'tie' it up. If it doesn't works, then a gloomy trip to the barber this sunday morning would seem unavoidable. -.-" Anyway, haven't been really practising this dance. In fact, I didn't even have confidence in doing this, even in the first show. Didn't understand the choreo entirely when I first learnt from Mr Small Wind :P And I still haven't now. Hope my 'go full out' mood is enough to avoid criticisms =(

Really need to work on the choreo. I'm so dead... Speaking of dead, just watched 'Just Like Heaven' on HBO. My sis told me it's a great show, and it really is. Enjoyed it =) Think it's directed by the same person who did freaky friday and mean girls. Can see some similarities in it. Somewhere near the end of the movie, the main character gets shit(not literally..) smacked in the face, and somehow it works out at the end. Haha... what a lousy way to describe it.

-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU-

Lip Gloss is cool.... =p

Stupid title. I'm so DEAD. Realized I'm the only one with nothing still. The others already have two and a half minutes of choreography or somewhere there. After that so called 'preview', I'm back to square one. Don't think what I did will work out. Haha, at least it wouldn't be wasted, the RS chi dancers wanna use that unfinished 'routine' that I did for the Teacher's Day concert =)

Audition's this coming thursday. Haha, not much time for them. Added in another song at the back, two minutes of Lip Gloss =p Haha, nice song with a catchy beat. Am I stupid or what, coz for some reason, I was kinda eager to help them. Even when I still got that dance item for dec's show to work on. I guess I just wanted to try doin what I like... Haha =p ???

As for the dec showcase, dang, still lost... I have no idea what to do? Artistic? Exactly what is artistic? Sh*t, I'm stupid -.-" Gotta think out of the box... Be creative. Why is it so hard? =( Man, I suck... =/

Trying to find a music to work on. All those I used and listened too are too.... urmz, plain? Problem is, what kinda music do I wanna use? What kinda dance am I doin? Don't know myself... dumb.

"D'oh!!!" - Homer Simpson.
It makes me laugh everytime I hear him make that sound. Haha.... D'oh!

Peace y'all.

Good Morning

Woke up earlier than usual today. zzz
Haha...

Lost/Alone

Yo. Got nothing to do so decided to post something here. Life sucks recently... Help!!! I'm lost... Haha, wake up everyday with no goals/objectives; meaning I have 'nothing' to do! Well, there is the pile of books that I should read and the dance item to work on, but dang, it's really sickening to do dance-related stuff everyday. Wonder how I'll survive when school starts. Haha...

Something is wrong with zuyou =p Can't get things done. Either I didn't try, or gave up trying. Ain't getting anywhere at all. It's like wasting time away... Oh yea, been waiting for this cafe at amk hub to gimme a call to inform me when I can start work. They haven't called yet, and I doubt they would -.-" oh well, can't hurt to wait a few days more.

Gotta change this lazy attitude asap. Maybe it's coz of the lack of work and stuff to do. 8months without goin to school can really make a person go mad =p Haha... kiddin.

To all ma peeps out there, don't let anything bring you down. Jiayou!!!
-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU- and me too

I have no idea what to choreograph for the Dec show. Any advice/suggestions? =D
Peace.

Si Liao Lah!!!

Didn't went so well on thursday... think I already saw that coming. Everything was done halfway and I don't even have the whole picture myself. Oh well... guess I could have never complete it since I keep telling myself I can't -.-" Need to come up with something different. Gotta work more on the whole choreography thing, not just some routine where everyone stands in a window formation and do their steps. *sigh

Does one come up with the whole choreo before they find the suitable music or after? Haha, I'm confused. Si liao lah... not much time left. And still need to find time to 'train up' the dancers and myself too =p

Live life to the fullest.
-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU-

stupid SYTYCD =p

Why.... why? Was looking through videos on youtube. And guess what, found a video of an opening dance by the top 16 from SYTYCD3. They were all dressed like african tribe peeps. They were dancing to the 'Lioness's Hunt' -.-" Somehow that pissed me off. It was really cool. There were moves like spins, turns and even b-boy freezes, but it still looks wild, ya know what I mean. Dang... I tried choreographing the front before and it sucks. Makes me wanna go bang a wall. 7 words.

Peace.

Stress, Choreo

Very stress over the choreography thing right now. It's wrong to be stressed right? Haha, have no idea what I'm saying. It's just that, mine's not good enough compared to the others. Obviously, there's a lack in formations and the concept is a little different. Sh*t, I'm so dead... Maybe the way I imagine the whole item is nice, but when I really try to do it, it just isn't. -.-"

Dang, gotta find some way do this properly. More dancers maybe? Find 'professional dancers'? =p Still have a lot to work on...

I suck. <0.o>

I miss you.

Can't Give Up

"Nothing comes without hard work." This words were finally knocked into my head today. A loser like me is never gonna learn(yea, keep telling yourself this and you're never gonna make it).

New day tml. Wish me luck.

-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU-

Half a day...

Woke up in the noon today, meaning half an hour ago. Dang, half a day gone -.-" Haven't slept like this(like a pig) for a long time. Haha, felt great for the first few minutes after waking up, mind was still half asleep. Don't remember anything depressing that happened. Oh well, then everything starts pouring back. =p

It's been two days and my left eye is still swollen(stupid contact lense!). It's not really obvious but it's uncomfortable -.-" Shouldn't complain about something like this... MUCH MUCH worse things are happening to other people :(

Oh ya, didn't get to watch Live Earth, oh well... Have a nice day y'all. Peace.

Take it to the floor no more =p

Changed the song here... (finally!!) No more take it to the floor. Haha, been wanting to change it for a long time. But dunno how and don't have the time :p Didn't realize how easy it is to put songs into blog now. Used to upload the songs myself on other sites and link it to this page. Anyway, this version of the song is nice, a lot better than the techno one. Enjoy...

...

I don't know what to do anymore.

-.-zzz

Very tired... I need a break from all this.

Sigh...

So it's done?

Hey, been quite 'busy' lately... and com broke down a few weeks ago :p Hmmm, I just finished Evoke not long ago! Yea, hope we did a good show. I did only one item though.. Oh well, everyone starts out small right? Yup, gimme two more years, I'll make it big then =p (highly doubt it) Will try to upload some pics asap. Dun have a digital cam -.-" have to get pics here and there from my friends :P Studio Woosh!!! Haha.. They're gonna have a post production party at butter factory this saturday. And we're supposed to dress up like crazy cow dancers! Something like the clothes peeps in christina aguilara videos wear.. retro style :p That would be fun =p But dang, guess I won't be able to attend; have to go catch a plane...

Haha, everything went quite smoothly on tuesday. Kinda funny that it did. And I did it without a "rehearsal"! Coz changed my plan at the last minute, about 12 to 1 plus.. Glad I did, this one was much better than the other one.(and a lot more fun!) Haha, guess no one understands what I'm saying here... :p Anyway, it was really a memorable day for me =) Fire baby!!! (what the? siao liao :x)

Dang, I'm still working on my choreo. Not really cut out to do this kinda thing. Still goin no where with the "My Love" dance. Will probably be doin a medley. Four different songs most likely. Haiz, -MAY THE FORCE BE WITH ME- :P

Peace.

The Word

What a lame title for a post. Anyway, was looking through my sis's books a few days ago... and I found the word to describe why I am what I am now... or the reason for what's happening to me. =p I have no self-esteem. That's why.

Gonna do anything about it? Of course! Just dunno what... go for counselling? Haha, no way... (no money too :P) It helps if I don't think too much about it, but that's the same as running away from the problem. Oh well.... haha..

Fighting a 'battle' I know I can't win. But who cares!? I ain't giving up.... for now... haha. Okay, that was kinda stupid and meaningless, just typing this crap for some self-encouragement :P

Oh yea, bought Linkin Park's latest album a few days ago. Wasn't as good as the previous ones. Chester only screamed in one song :p Haha, most of the songs just seems... tired. He was more like 'mumbling very clearly'instead of singing, I would prefer him screaming like nobody's business :p Haha, and Mike sang in one of the songs instead of just rapping! Although he just repeated 2 lines for like a dozen times. Actually he did sing in 'Where You Go' in his fort miner album... Hehe

Here's a conversation between a few characters from a movie. Can't get these lines outta my head since sec 1 :p Can you guess which movie it is? =P

__________________________________________________________
A: We've been eatting maggots and bread for 3 stinking days!
B: Yea, why can't with have some meat?
C: What about them? They look fresh...
D: They are not for eating!
C: What about their legs? They don't need those... They look tasty... Arg!!!!

Haha, any ideas? Here's a clue. They're all orcs...

Peace y'all.

Nothing Left

Shit, I'm a complete failure.

I don't know what to say. Can't take all this crap anymore... I have nothing. I am nothing. And it sucks...

What is happening to ZuyOu? Nothing. And that's the problem... I'm bad at writing and describing stuff, so I can't really explain how I feel right now. Hmmmmm, feels like everyone's on the top floor of a skyscraper and here I am still stuck at the basement... Okay, that was a lousy attempt at describing how I felt =p

Think part of me is trapped inside an ice box; frozen(yet another lousy attempt) I don't have interest in doin anything anymore. Don't feel like doin anything much at all... Somebody please help me... -.-"

EK suggested taking a holiday. Come to think of it, I haven't really enjoyed the so called 'holiday' I'm having now at all. Everyday it's just the same old routine... well, most days... wake up, rot, and off to SW in the evening.. And there's classes at HK during weekends. I seriously neeed to get a life. urmz, dunno whether i should say this, but to be honest, i don't like goin there at all. Everytime I go there, I'll have to face what I fear most: the truth. Haha, guess nobody understands what the heck I'm writing in this post.

Haiz, I shouldn't be complaining. There's many people out there who's facing a lot of troubles, many people with lots of sh*t to deal with. And here I am complaining my a*s out. Should be glad that I'm not facing any problems right now since I can't even deal with myself. (what?) Haha....

Ok, anyway, the musical EVOKE is really good. Enjoyed it a lot when I watched most of the programme during the rehearsal. It was rather entertaining :P But I still don't think it's worth 20/30 bucks =p

I wanna go home.
Peace.

Update!

Haha, actually this is not really gonna be something important. Just posting something here for the sake of posting. Been trying to sign in for weeks already. But the blogger home page just can't finish loading -.-" Did something to the com today and viola! But it's kinda late now so won't write anything much.

Have been kinda "busy" these few weeks as usual :P, although school still HASN'T START for me. Dang,I had a lot in mind that I wanna post about actually, but having mindblock now.

Hmmmm, that's all for now. Will try to update again next time. Properly... :p k, have a nice day then =)

-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU-

Don't bother.... =p

Don't bother reading this post if you have something better to do =p

Ha, I've no idea what to write too... Kinda stupid to talk about dance all the time :P Haven't been doin anything productive since I graduated... just wasting time and all. Sianz... Gotta start 'my engine' soon.

Hmmmm, since I'm not studying anymore, I have A LOT of time to think about stuff... Important stuff, useless stuff, crap .etc And feels like I'm lost now, not literally of course. Dang, life sucks =p

Just a childish, useless boy posting something here. Please ignore this post. Peace out.

Shi Bai Shi Chen Gong Zi Mu?

Wahaha,just managed to logged in yesterday only so decided to post another entry again... :p Sadly, it's gonna be somehow related to dance again.. G-A-Y!!!

Got a call from Studio Wu this afternoon, Caleb told me that I got through the hiphop audition... Yea!! look out for me in the upcoming production baby!! But it'll just be a small role I guess. Oh well, couldn't expect more. So I was like "what about the jazz audition?" He told me he's not sure but I could check my e-mail to find out. And so begins a whole day of anticipation... Haha..

Didn't get in for jazz =( So pissed off, at nobody but particularly at myself... Guess I just wasn't good enough. No wait, when was I ever good? Great... Will really have to work hard if I were to achieve something. But where to start? Haiz, Bu yao tiao wu le lah =p

There's also that hiphop dance comp that me and my so-called crew(JuzWhack) joined last saturday. Obviously we lost... Haha, what more could you expect from a punk with failure written all over him? Was REALLY down that day after the comp, went to toa payoh to meet our dancemates from Huikuan. Phew! Luckily Laoshi wasn't there. There's no way I could face her then... Skipping class and joining some bloody competition and coming back empty-handed. Haha, Boon, Engkiat and Ed were cheering me up, saying like "it's okay, we just join for fun","We only lost coz we're not there... yet"... there's more but I forget liao =p

Was ashamed to face her too. It just sucks that I had no good news to tell her. I really wanted to impress her or something ya know? Dang....

Anyway, it wasn't a really competitive comp anyway.. and the judges were peeps from Styles From Beyond, not some famous local instructor like Patrick Loo or something... Many crews that took part were just doin the common stuffs like krumping and wacking and all. And there were quite a few which obviously didn't have technical training. Haha, they were doin all the shaking stuff wrongly :P But who am I to criticise them -.-" Haha... There were good crews too and they won of course. They were REALLY good, we were WAY OUT of our league...

I guess I took a harder fall than the rest of my crew. You see, we lost partly coz we're not good enough as dancers... obviously. As for the other reason, haiz, don't really wanna talk about it. Y'all all would know... if you think about it. Haha, but don't waste your time thinkin..

It's gettin late... wanted to type more stuff actually but if I do, you would have fallen asleep reading all this crap :p

Oh ya, heard Chong tellin the sec 1s this today during class... "If you think you can do it, you can do it" or something like that. I thought this phrase was kinda encouraging =)Haha, will keep this inside my head....

I should end this post on a good note. Been crazy over chocolates recently :p Not the expensive ones though. Peeps out there, you all should try Cadbury boost, hope I got the spelling right :P It tastes absolutely urmz.... chocolatety!!! Wahaha.. K, gotta go.

Peace out.

Finally got a Google account

Wahaha!!! I can finally logged in. So sorry to the very few peeps out there who do visit this page... Couldn't logged in for a very long time coz I don't have a google account. And when I clicked on the link to create one, the page couldn't load. Today, I decided to go straight to the google website and create one. How silly of me to have not thought of that before -.-"

Hmmm, haven't posted anything for like 2 months? I had a lot of things to say but forgot everything liao. Feels like a lot of things has happened over these past 3 months... Guess that's because I'm not schooling anymore. Schoolwork is not something I have to worry over.... for now :p Haha....

Okay, so what to type here? Hmmm... I've been kinda down recently. Seems like dance is becoming something impt in my life.. and that sounds really, urm... gay. =p Haha... I feel that I really SUCK at it. Seriously... I know I've come this far through hardwork. I've got no talent and natural ability, and it's starting to piss me off. Since I'm starting to slack abit, I have nothing good left -.-" Gotta start my engine again soon. Oh ya, and I'm still not flexible -.-"

Actually there's a lot of things I wanna say bout dance(sound so gay again!) but I'm just too lazy... =p

Haiz, think I've changed a lot since the last post, but is it for the better I don't know. One thing that hasn't change is that I'm still kinda short -.-

Just realized I have very little friends. Since I graduated, I don't see my schoolmates anymore... Only people in this world that I have contact with are the peeps from Huay Kuan. Sianz...

Anyway, I'm kinda wondering exactly who visits this page. Have never advertised this blog anywhere so nobody really know this blog exists actually.. Haha, so can anyone who sees this entry post a comment here? Thanks, haha...

Oh yea, haven't written this words for a long time. So here goes
-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU-

Peace y'all.

Chocolates... =)

Been quite some time since I came back. And I still haven't brought the chocolates to HK; keep forgetting -.-" Oh well, maybe I'll eat them all myself :P

Was feeling like sh*t on Saturday. Happens all the time. The truth really hurts and the truth is... I suck. Was learning this Ming Jian Wu and I can't even get the dong li and the simple footwork right. Then there's that Shen Yun routine. That really s*cks man. No wait, I'm the one who s*ck :P Haha, and I was hit with the truth. *ahbish!

So I decided to practise more on Sunday. Went down early to practise. But I don't see any improvement. At least I can finally remember the routines. Haha, the modern dance was nice. Can see why they call it 'fun'. But it isn't easy... Will have to practise real hard to do better.

Have no idea why I'm posting all this here. Who gives a sh*t anyway? Haha, so here's some things that I found out. It's really true... Hope it helps you all as well in one way or another =)
1. You can't dance well unless you're carrying a positive attitude.
2. Work towards a goal to improve.
3. I suck. =p

Haha, the last point was crap... Gotta go. See y'all
- MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU -

In Da house

Yo! Guess who's back? Returned from Europe yesterday morning. Was kinda tired. Didn't sleep ,much on the plane. Hmmm... what to say about Europe? Nothing to say leh. Haha, guess I'm just too lazy to think. That's why =p

Europe is a very beautiful place. That's all I can think of. The buildings are all very hmm.... 'artistic'? Full of detailed statues and stuff. We went there just to visit ancient historical buildings and magnificent structures -.-" Haha, what's so fun about that? But it really is a beautiful sight. Nothing like what you see in Singapore. All you'll see here are HDBs and stuff -.-" No offence, LKY or any gov peeps I've offended =p

Haha, went to many places in Europe. And they all have nice churches. I wonder whether the churches in Singapore are similar to those there? Nah,, most of the churches there are ennormous...

Oh yah, my four-legged sister is back! Haha, miss her so much =) Looks like she has lost some weight. Are the 'hotels' ill treating the 'guests'. Haha, crap.

Year 2007 is here. Man, can't believe one year is gone. The years I spend in secondary school seems to end faster every year. Feel like sec 1 and 2 are the longest years I had and sec 3 and 4 are very short. Well, that makes everything even doesn't it? =p Haha, crap again...

No school for me tomorrow =p Wahaha...
Peace y'all.