Alive?

Life isn't fair. I don't have my fair share of ups and downs. What a bad way to start off writing. Been a jerk these few days. Hope I didn't bother everyone too much. I still am now. Sorry. I'm gonna break soon...

Was feeling bad the whole day yesterday. I really can't do this kind of choreography. I'm not that experienced yet. Now I don't how to continue with it. Was never a creative person =( In secondary school, it took me almost 20minutes to think of what to write for a composition. What ever happened to my right brain? It's not there maybe or it hasn't ever been used.

Starting to go back to how I was again. I'm certain it's not normal to cry almost every night. Just can't help it. Weak idiot -.-" Yea, they say I just think too much. Then how do you think less? Looking at how my life is going, I feel like sh*t these few days. Can't remember the last time I had some happiness. Now there's nothing left. Depressed. "zi you zi ji neng pang zi ji"

Hate birthdays. It just shows how little friends I have. Those who truly care. That's why I try to do many things for many people. Hoping some day people would do the same for me. Not making any sense here. Nvm.

Once again, ZuYou failed in changing to be a better, independent person. He wished his father could come and scold him, knocking some sense real hard into his hollow good-for-nothing head. Haiz, hopeless people like ZuYou don't last very long.

Oh yes I skipped school today.