I am so... tired.
There is so many things happening at the same time. I got Friday's performance, Ballet exam, Contemporary exam, Collaboration showing, Genting performance, Coppelia.
I know I complain a lot and things aren't so bad once it's over. But how am I going to pull through this. Right now it's just crazy. My mind and body is calling for a break! My mind can't focus and do my academic work. My mind can't remember all the examination combinations. My mind can't remember all the steps for Collab. Sorry yh and ll. And most sorry to myself, for being too busy and tired to give a damn about my own lousy piece.
And I really need to practise for those upcoming performances. No way I can perform in Genting with this level of lousy dancing. And seriously ballet is impossible for me. I can't even stand decently without arching my back. I cannot do pirouette or turns of any sort, coz I'm so stupidly retarded and stiff. I just can't turn out for crying out loud. I try and try, I stretch a lot, I do cool down. My body just isn't built for this kind of thing. You know how some people can come and just do everything.
There is a point where hardwork alone is just not enough. Now that I'm not even motivated to work hard, what else am I good for? I should just give up.
Sleep deprived -_- zzz
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i will smack you if you give up now!
you've come such a long way and everyone will slaughter you if you don't pull through, because we all know you can.
have faith in yourself kiddo.
screw the need to have facilities for dance. If you enjoy dancing, just do it.
Hardwork, more than anything, is beyond important for a dancer. Because if you have all the dancing abilities, but you acquire the worst of attitudes, nobody's gonna want/use you.
so cheer up!
stare at our goofy faces in school and tadaaaa, school's gonna end damn fast!
what bloody perf on friday do u have. hmm hmmm?
zu you!! you where got cannot turn?? i see triples in your solo lehh!!!!
jiayou! you'll be great :D
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