Suffocating.

Even after dans fest, things are still as hectic as ever. Everything. It's still too much for me to handle. School, assignments, rehearsals, performances. I really can't multi-task.

It's okay if I have time to do each at a time. But right now everything is just coming right at me. And all I end up doing is screaming at myself. I'm missing classes in school in the morning. I need time to do my work. Need time to seriously sit down, think and write, not just splatter words and paragraphs for the sake of meeting datelines. It's pointless getting back papers with big fat D on it.

Choreography takes time too. And I've been rushing and not thinking about what I'm doing properly. Don't even wanna talk about my collaboration with Music Tech students. Somehow I gotta find a way to see the dance together with electronic music. I'm not saying the music is bad, just that what I've made is not going well with the music composition at all.

I miss everything.

I miss dancing because it's fun.

I miss dancing because I want to.

I'm gonna do my work now.

So f*cked.