Why do we fall?

Oh man, I hate myself for dreading homework. Just managed to complete two of my journals, and it's like 3 in the morning already. Gonna be walking zombie tomorrow morning. Things would be a whole lot easier if I was more passionate about my work. Gotta get used to the kind of work required. I really need to use my head more. Think farther! Think critically!

School today was bad for me. I don't know whether I'm sick or not. Part of me says I am and part of me feels I'm not. I can't differentiate between unwell and lazy. Or maybe I had a combination of both? But today I felt weak and tired from doing simple leaps and learning some choreography that wasn't physically demanding. I wonder how I'll do tomorrow in ballet class...

Should I even take the class? I don't want Mr Cheng to look down on me again. Then again, am I well enough? Hopefully I don't faint at the barre. Really wished I hadn't fallen sick. Everytime things like this happen, it's hard for me to get myself back up. And it keeps getting harder and harder...

But deep down I know, no matter how much I whine, no matter how much I complain, no matter how often I lose it... I'm still gonna try. I'll try again and again and again. As long as there is a reason to do so, I will keep trying. I can't back down now and proof 'them' right. I'm sorry if I always complain a lot to you, maybe it's coz I need that extra push from behind. Things will get better in time.

It just takes more time than I have and expected to get up. But I will try. Take things slowly one at a time. THINK POSITIVE!

Why do we fall? So that we can learn to pick ourselves up.

Yes it is a hard lesson but I'm learning... Gotta give each new day a smile and get on with it. Two and a half hours of sleep left. OMG... Gotta make it worth! Haha...