Half way through...

I know what's wrong with me...

Ever since I went through all that "emotional breakdowns", I think I sort of closed myself up. I dug my own hole and hid what's left of me inside. I told myself to do what I have to do... and I'm gonna do it... alone.

No regrets. No troubles. No distractions.

I guess in a way, the way I chose to try opening up did me no good. I realize, I still do care about everyone; my friends. I get distracted, I get troubled, I get irritated, I get confused, I get stressed, I get scared. I thought I could do everything myself, on my own. But now I feel like I need them more than they need me. I should be the one there for them, not the other way round.

I'm getting a mental barrier inside my head. I can't dance properly. I can't improve. I've lost my confidence and self-respect.

Dang, I really need to get a hold of myself soon. Sometimes enough is enough. I'm never ever gonna bring myself on that emotional roller coaster again.

This is turning out to be just a meaningless post about a boy complainging about his pathetic self =( This will be the end of it. Tomorrow will be a better day.

I am so dispensable.

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Is anybody listening?
Can they hear me when I call?
I`m shooting signals in the air
`Cause I need somebody`s help
I can`t make it on my own
So I`m giving up myself
Is anybody listening...listening?

I`ve been stranded here and I`m miles away
Making signals hoping they`d save me
I lock myself inside these walls
`Cause out there I`m always wrong
I don`t think I`m gonna make it
So while I`m sitting here on the eve of my defeat
I write this letter and hope it saves me

Is anybody listening?
Can they hear me when I call?
I`m shooting signals in the air
`Cause I need somebody`s help
I can`t make it on my own
So I`m giving up myself
Is anybody listening...listening?

I`m stuck in my own head and I`m oceans away
Would anybody notice if I chose to stay?
I`ll send an S.O.S. tonight
And wonder if I will survive
How in the hell did I get so far away this time?
So now I`m sitting here
And the time of my departure`s near
I say a prayer please, someone save me

Is anybody listening?
Can they hear me when I call?
I`m shooting signals in the air
`Cause I need somebody`s help
I can`t make it on my own
So I`m giving up myself
Is anybody listening...listening?


I`m lost here
I can`t make it on my own
I don`t wanna die alone
I`m so scared
Drowning now
Reaching out
Holding onto everything I love
Dying now
Crying out
Need some help

Is anybody listening?
Can they hear me when I call?
Shooting signals in the air
I need somebody`s help
I can`t make it on my own
I`m giving up myself
Is anybody listening?

This is the accoustic version of the song. Gives a more melancholic tone to it compared to the original rock version.
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I need help. At the same time I don't want help. Contradicting.