Good to be Home

Feels great to be at home at night. Selamat Hari Raya Haji. Three cheers for public holidays, it simply means "book out loh!" And the best thing is I only have to go back tomorrow morning, which explain why it feels great to be home at night.

I had my first full (half full actually, just the items before the intermission) rehearsal with the SHHK dancers. I'm only doing one balang, so it ain't so tired for me. Just 4.48mins of moving, then I can go shag out at the back. Now I get to feel like the audience watching everyone perform, instead of rushing and worrying about the ones I'm involved in. And I gotta say, all the dancers rock! We're not professionals, but it's good! Enjoyed watching the happy dances and the emotional "don't cry nanjing". And few days back I managed to catch them rehearsing White Snake. That was good too. Haha...

I'm glad I feel part of the group again today. It's a rather warm and familiar feeling. Really miss that, since I've been very not involved recently. I know everyone is rehearsing really hard everyday, and I admire their passions at what they do. Sometimes I wonder to myself, I see that they enjoy dance because of the company and the "let's chiong together" attitude. For me, sometimes I still feel it's a lonely thing. Like doing it for the sake of doing. In short, where has my passion gone? Maybe that is what is missing in my perf, I can't show it fully to the audience as I'm not even sure about myself. Confidence, courage, passion... Gotta be in there somewhere, or more like out there, just got to learn to obtain it.

Good luck to us all! Next week most of them are going to Genting. Gonna be so lonely. Haha... Right, better take the time to get things that needs to be done done. =)

Oh I finally watch "Michael Jackson: This Is It" this morning. King of Pop.... Love lives forever.