Sunday, August 30, 2009

Stillness inside me

Well I have nothing interesting to blog about. I feel my life's too tight. Been pretty occupied. With School and other stuff. I find that I don't have much time for myself.

But even if I do, I don't know what I wanna do.

Oh man, it's the "drifting aimlessly on the sea" feeling again. I don't know why I'm doing the things I'm doing. Just a hopeless feeling.

Haha, actually I still got work to do. I'm doing an essay on Filipino dance. About how a certain dance form should or should not evolve to remain relevent to its present culture. Alright, I'll do it tonight, when I get back from Huay Kuan.

Sigh... I wish I could spend more time at HuayKuan. Currently, my weekends keep getting interrupted by other commitments. I feel so bad not being able to make it for HuayKuan classes. Then again, things there have changed much...

On the other hand, I need some space to breathe. I wanna escape from all this. This life. I wish I am somewhere else. Maybe at the countryside, lying on the grassland, looking at clouds or something.

But I guess all these dreaming isn't gonna help much. Back to reality then... Go hard!
________________________________________________

I wish I could move and dance from inside. I just don't think I can open myself up to that kind of space. Sometimes I feel that I shouldn't do all this. Alright... enough self-beating.

No comments: