Stillness inside me

Well I have nothing interesting to blog about. I feel my life's too tight. Been pretty occupied. With School and other stuff. I find that I don't have much time for myself.

But even if I do, I don't know what I wanna do.

Oh man, it's the "drifting aimlessly on the sea" feeling again. I don't know why I'm doing the things I'm doing. Just a hopeless feeling.

Haha, actually I still got work to do. I'm doing an essay on Filipino dance. About how a certain dance form should or should not evolve to remain relevent to its present culture. Alright, I'll do it tonight, when I get back from Huay Kuan.

Sigh... I wish I could spend more time at HuayKuan. Currently, my weekends keep getting interrupted by other commitments. I feel so bad not being able to make it for HuayKuan classes. Then again, things there have changed much...

On the other hand, I need some space to breathe. I wanna escape from all this. This life. I wish I am somewhere else. Maybe at the countryside, lying on the grassland, looking at clouds or something.

But I guess all these dreaming isn't gonna help much. Back to reality then... Go hard!
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I wish I could move and dance from inside. I just don't think I can open myself up to that kind of space. Sometimes I feel that I shouldn't do all this. Alright... enough self-beating.

One Year Older.

NO!!! I'm 19 already... In one more year I'll be 20, and then 21 in another. That's too fast! I want to enjoy my youth :P

I just turned 19 last thursday, 6th August. Haha, had a lovely surprise from my friends.

Thank you Rui Ling!
Thank you Elibird!
Thank you Rui Min!
Thank you Eng Kiat!
Thank you Menghooi!
Thank you EVERYONE!!!

Life isn't that bad.
It never is. With you guys around...

I am not a child now.
I can take care of myself
I mustn't let them down now
Mustn't let them see me cry
I'm fine
I'm fine
I'm to tired to listen
I'm too old to believe
All these childish stories
There is no such thing as faith
And trust
And pixie dust
I try
But its to hard to believe
I try
But I can't see what you see
I try
I try
I try
My whole world is changing
I don't know where to turn
I can't leave you baby
But I cant stay and watch the city burn
Watch it burn
'Cause I try
But its so hard to believe
I try
But I can't see where you see
I try
I try
I try and try
To understand
The distance in between
The love I feel
The things i fear
In every single dream
I can finally see it
Now I have to believe
All those precious stories
All the world is made of faith
And trust
And pixie dust
So I'll try
'Cause I finally believe
I'll try
'Cause I see where you see
I'll try
I'll try
I'll try
I'll try
To fly

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I may never be able to really fly up into the sky.
But dance is my pixie dust.
And the stage is my Neverland.
The day I stop dancing is the day I finally grow up.

Okay that just doesn't sound like me at all -.-zzz