Crossroads

It's monday morning now. Well it's actually almost afternoon already. Haha, I woke up late today like, 10 plus. Had 9 hours of good sleep, haven't slept so much in a long time :p

We did the Guan Mo Hui dance showcase yesterday, Good job everyone! Although I heard it was not very well done as there were plenty of mistakes. It happens in performances all the time, we just have to make sure we cover them up and the audience doesn't know it. Haha

Now that this performance is done, I'm not sure what to do anymore. Huay Kuan I mean... This might just be the last show I do with them. And everything's so different now. Everything's changed. I feel like I don't belong there anymore.

Arg, this is starting to be another depressing post again.

It's kind of frustrating that I have no sense of where I wanna go, and what I wanna do. Choices are so difficult to make. I can't make choices because I'm just too afraid of the things that would happen. I don't know what I'll do if I would fall again. I'll never be able to climb back up and continue.

Just so lost and confused right now. "Set goals in life, have dreams". But what is it that I want? Besides chocolates and ice lemon tea? :P Haha...

I'm trying very hard to make a choice....

And yup, I'm gonna try. I know if I don't I'm gonna regret it forever. Now all I need is the confidence and courage to do it. I don't want us to go on like this, things are gonna be different, trust me. Okay, I'm talking to myself again...

The courage to stand on my own. I choose to be the best of me.