Friday, December 26, 2008
Thursday, December 18, 2008
1)Just another of those days 2)Digging up the Past?
Finally, another update. I'm eating bread with nutella now. Yummy...
Today (Well yesterday actually..) was like any other of my easier more relaxed days I suppose. Went to Anderson sec in the morning to help out with their Chinese New Year item. It's not perfect yet, but at least there's improvement and it looks better than before. They'll be dancing with a chou-san sort of thing. It's kind of like a fan with long cloth like that of a chou.
Yea, so after that I just wanted to chill. Actually wanted to eh.... meet up or something. Arg, well nvm, Ya so from AMK I met up with some friends and ate LJS and Swensens. Haha, Lao Ma had a coupon at Swensens that we could use to get two sundaes for the price of one :p
Ya so we hanged out and chilled. Haha, opps sorry if sometimes I get all moody and isolated. Watch a 9plus show at Causeway Point, Twilight. It's an okay show I guess. Maybe if I have the time, I'll try to get and read the book. But I think it's like almost sold out everywhere. well, maybe next time then, still got tons of books I want to but haven't got a chance to read yet.
Whoa, this might just turn out to be a longer post than I thought. Okay, 5min break. Gotta go fix myself another slice of bread and nutella... I just realize I haven't eat dinner today >_<"
Okay I'm back. Took more than five minutes though. So anyway, I reached home late just now. Nothing surprising there :p And who would have thought of it, I actually took time to clean and tidy up my room! Haha, my room's been in a dreadful mess for quite a while already. It's really like a pig sty, with stacks of paper lying everywhere, and things thrown around.
When I was trying to organise the papers lying on the table, I came across the cards that I received recently. Most of them are the cards I received on my 18th birthday. For a moment i felt happy reading them. But just a moment. What they did for me was nice =) Really appreciate that.
And there was also the fans. I found the fans that I used to use in secondary school. We performed Zhang He a lot. Haha, there was the green fan which I use for practices. Now it's broken beyond repair. I'll just leave in my room then :p And there was the other fan. This one's similar to the red Kungfu fan that the guys are using to practise now. I didn't know I had this fan with me, it's used during our performances in those days. Haha, I actually Kapok-ed the fan home. The school doesn't use it anymore anyway. This fan really brings back a lot of memories for me, both in and out of dance. It's really cool, the fan even has my name written nicely on it. A very cool fan indeed... =p
I digged up a few photos as well. I printed them recently only, just this year. It's pics of some of us RS HK peeps eating together. It's really sad that we'll never be able to do that again, after all that's happened with them. Screw them man =/ Haha...
And dang, I also dug up a piece of letter that I wrote long ago. Well, it's just last year only but still, I had almost forgot about it. I never gave the letter. It's actually more like a draft, scribbled on foolscap, but I never came about to finishing it properly. Hmmm... I don't want to be that emo kid writing that letter anymore. I'm different now, hopefully, even if it's just different by an inch or two. Maybe I should give that letter, hmmm....
I wish when the time comes, I'll have the courage to pull this one through. I'll think about it. Or I'll sleep over it coz I'm tired now. zzz zzz Haha.
Peace.
Don't give up on me.
Today (Well yesterday actually..) was like any other of my easier more relaxed days I suppose. Went to Anderson sec in the morning to help out with their Chinese New Year item. It's not perfect yet, but at least there's improvement and it looks better than before. They'll be dancing with a chou-san sort of thing. It's kind of like a fan with long cloth like that of a chou.
Yea, so after that I just wanted to chill. Actually wanted to eh.... meet up or something. Arg, well nvm, Ya so from AMK I met up with some friends and ate LJS and Swensens. Haha, Lao Ma had a coupon at Swensens that we could use to get two sundaes for the price of one :p
Ya so we hanged out and chilled. Haha, opps sorry if sometimes I get all moody and isolated. Watch a 9plus show at Causeway Point, Twilight. It's an okay show I guess. Maybe if I have the time, I'll try to get and read the book. But I think it's like almost sold out everywhere. well, maybe next time then, still got tons of books I want to but haven't got a chance to read yet.
Whoa, this might just turn out to be a longer post than I thought. Okay, 5min break. Gotta go fix myself another slice of bread and nutella... I just realize I haven't eat dinner today >_<"
Okay I'm back. Took more than five minutes though. So anyway, I reached home late just now. Nothing surprising there :p And who would have thought of it, I actually took time to clean and tidy up my room! Haha, my room's been in a dreadful mess for quite a while already. It's really like a pig sty, with stacks of paper lying everywhere, and things thrown around.
When I was trying to organise the papers lying on the table, I came across the cards that I received recently. Most of them are the cards I received on my 18th birthday. For a moment i felt happy reading them. But just a moment. What they did for me was nice =) Really appreciate that.
And there was also the fans. I found the fans that I used to use in secondary school. We performed Zhang He a lot. Haha, there was the green fan which I use for practices. Now it's broken beyond repair. I'll just leave in my room then :p And there was the other fan. This one's similar to the red Kungfu fan that the guys are using to practise now. I didn't know I had this fan with me, it's used during our performances in those days. Haha, I actually Kapok-ed the fan home. The school doesn't use it anymore anyway. This fan really brings back a lot of memories for me, both in and out of dance. It's really cool, the fan even has my name written nicely on it. A very cool fan indeed... =p
I digged up a few photos as well. I printed them recently only, just this year. It's pics of some of us RS HK peeps eating together. It's really sad that we'll never be able to do that again, after all that's happened with them. Screw them man =/ Haha...
And dang, I also dug up a piece of letter that I wrote long ago. Well, it's just last year only but still, I had almost forgot about it. I never gave the letter. It's actually more like a draft, scribbled on foolscap, but I never came about to finishing it properly. Hmmm... I don't want to be that emo kid writing that letter anymore. I'm different now, hopefully, even if it's just different by an inch or two. Maybe I should give that letter, hmmm....
I wish when the time comes, I'll have the courage to pull this one through. I'll think about it. Or I'll sleep over it coz I'm tired now. zzz zzz Haha.
Peace.
Don't give up on me.
Monday, December 08, 2008
Crossroads
It's monday morning now. Well it's actually almost afternoon already. Haha, I woke up late today like, 10 plus. Had 9 hours of good sleep, haven't slept so much in a long time :p
We did the Guan Mo Hui dance showcase yesterday, Good job everyone! Although I heard it was not very well done as there were plenty of mistakes. It happens in performances all the time, we just have to make sure we cover them up and the audience doesn't know it. Haha
Now that this performance is done, I'm not sure what to do anymore. Huay Kuan I mean... This might just be the last show I do with them. And everything's so different now. Everything's changed. I feel like I don't belong there anymore.
Arg, this is starting to be another depressing post again.
It's kind of frustrating that I have no sense of where I wanna go, and what I wanna do. Choices are so difficult to make. I can't make choices because I'm just too afraid of the things that would happen. I don't know what I'll do if I would fall again. I'll never be able to climb back up and continue.
Just so lost and confused right now. "Set goals in life, have dreams". But what is it that I want? Besides chocolates and ice lemon tea? :P Haha...
I'm trying very hard to make a choice....
And yup, I'm gonna try. I know if I don't I'm gonna regret it forever. Now all I need is the confidence and courage to do it. I don't want us to go on like this, things are gonna be different, trust me. Okay, I'm talking to myself again...
The courage to stand on my own. I choose to be the best of me.
We did the Guan Mo Hui dance showcase yesterday, Good job everyone! Although I heard it was not very well done as there were plenty of mistakes. It happens in performances all the time, we just have to make sure we cover them up and the audience doesn't know it. Haha
Now that this performance is done, I'm not sure what to do anymore. Huay Kuan I mean... This might just be the last show I do with them. And everything's so different now. Everything's changed. I feel like I don't belong there anymore.
Arg, this is starting to be another depressing post again.
It's kind of frustrating that I have no sense of where I wanna go, and what I wanna do. Choices are so difficult to make. I can't make choices because I'm just too afraid of the things that would happen. I don't know what I'll do if I would fall again. I'll never be able to climb back up and continue.
Just so lost and confused right now. "Set goals in life, have dreams". But what is it that I want? Besides chocolates and ice lemon tea? :P Haha...
I'm trying very hard to make a choice....
And yup, I'm gonna try. I know if I don't I'm gonna regret it forever. Now all I need is the confidence and courage to do it. I don't want us to go on like this, things are gonna be different, trust me. Okay, I'm talking to myself again...
The courage to stand on my own. I choose to be the best of me.
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