Why

Crystals forming in the eye. They've been coming for the past few days. I can't control myself anymore. I don't what it is I'm looking for, what it is I want.

I feel so alone. I feel, sad.

One day down... millions more to go

I guess it's one of those days where I could think and function logically. Went to school, had class... lunch... class, fell asleep halfway through performance history... had rehearsal.... off to studio wu for class.... go home.

Haha, and I've finished my journal assignment due tml. =p Finally have some "free" time. But still go lotsa things to do =[ Always get caught up in all sorts of crap.

Hmmm, I think I'm trying to make peace with myself. There are important things to be done. No use crying over my sorrows... =(

I wonder what she's doing now...

Don tink too much lahz

I know it's just a thing of the mind. But I just can't help it. Seems like misery has become my new best friend. -_-"

VDay

Happy Valentine's Day =) What a boring stupid day...

What a year.

I read through my posts here in 2007. I realized I don't talk much about the two of us. It's mostly about my silly problems with dance, especially the dec showcase. I guess the reason why I didn't write much about that is I hope someday,you'll come across this page, and understand more abt me. You never did of course. Haha...

It ended somewhere in July. I guess I was taking it quite well for a while. Then in August, that's when I started cracking up. Every now and then there were melancholic entries by a very depressed, heart-broken man. (Well, most of the time actually, I realized :p)

Hate it when I grieve over the past. Nothing's gonna come out of it. "Move on dude."

I miss you. I really do.

Not again.

Just wanna say the same thing which I've posted here before...
I can't remember the last time I was truly happy.

I don't know what I want.

From 07 to 08

Yay, been better these few weeks. Life's a lot easier to go through this way.It's chinese new year chu yi today. For some reason I woke up 5 plus in the morning. Watched Sweeny Todd with EK and RL ytd. Very nice show. You can never get tired of musicals :P Haha, but I think live musical theatre performances are much better. You can really 'feel' the performers.

Not visiting much relatives this year again. That makes 2 years in row. Oh well... Who enjoys going bai nian anyway. Except for the money maybe.

I'm haunted by year 2007. It's been a year. It's like I'm 're-living' everything. Everyday I look at the date and recall what I did last year on this day. All the crap I put myself through, all the regrets, all the pointless sorrow... the happy thoughts... the happy moments... the beautiful moments. Gone. Everything lost.

No point grieving over the past. Got loads more to deal with now. Wait for me please. Nobody's perfect. (I'm nobody. Nah, just playin :p) One has to learn to care for oneself before learning to care for others.

寂寞男孩的悲哀, 说出来，谁明白
Haha, a line from a familiar song =p