Empty.

I guess it's just one of those nights... depressed. It sucks living with a feeling of emptiness. I don't know why but ever since that happened I cannot stand being alone. Gotta learn to be more independent -.-"

Haha, having fried rice now. Cooked it myself :P But my mum was guiding me, again. It's so hard to remember what to do first. The sausages, the egg, the rice, the crabmeat, the salt, the 'jiang qin' (I forgot what it is in eng :p) So confusing... Luckily it still tasted alright. But if you guys don't see me tomorrow you'll probably know what's the cause of it.

I hope it's just one of those nights. Coz I ain't feelin so good right now. Hate my loser life. Maybe if I work really hard, eveything would work out fine. To be cold... I'm not one who's bold enough to do that. I don't know how to just walk away. Not making much sense again.

Peace y'all. Oh ya, by the way, Lasalle's having an informal showing in school this coming friday, at H102 on the first floor. Starts at 6. Do come watch if you have got nothing else better to do :P Zu You will be appearing in a short 'animal-like' routine, Loretta's piece, and a short rhythm performance. Wish him luck!

Next Time.

I look at the man in the mirror and I don't like what I see. The way he looks. The way he behaves. The way he thinks. Time for a change.

Somehow, it makes me feel a little better to voice my sadness here. So this page is soon becoming a dull one about a boy writing about miserable things. Hmmm, maybe I should do this; makes it easier to keep things to myself at other times. The world doesn't have to see this side of me. To the peeps who do come here, I thank you for allowing me to share this with you. Besides, nobody likes a depressed, anti-social person.

Somehow I got to make it on my own. I have to. Slowly but surely, I'm fading...

Next time.

Keeping It Real.

Reached home at 11 plus. I just happened to switch on the tv and there's a movie on HBO. "Hustle and Flow". Find it inspiring.

"Everybody's gotta have a dream."

Yea, but that's just what they are. Dreams.

Way Over My Head

Don't really know how to describe it. I just feel very "mixed up" recently. And it isn't a good feeling -.-"

Have a good day everyone.

Way Back Into Love

Haha, just happen to listen to this song on the computer. Here are bits and pieces of the lyrics from the song...

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end.

Have a nice day everyone.

Alive?

Life isn't fair. I don't have my fair share of ups and downs. What a bad way to start off writing. Been a jerk these few days. Hope I didn't bother everyone too much. I still am now. Sorry. I'm gonna break soon...

Was feeling bad the whole day yesterday. I really can't do this kind of choreography. I'm not that experienced yet. Now I don't how to continue with it. Was never a creative person =( In secondary school, it took me almost 20minutes to think of what to write for a composition. What ever happened to my right brain? It's not there maybe or it hasn't ever been used.

Starting to go back to how I was again. I'm certain it's not normal to cry almost every night. Just can't help it. Weak idiot -.-" Yea, they say I just think too much. Then how do you think less? Looking at how my life is going, I feel like sh*t these few days. Can't remember the last time I had some happiness. Now there's nothing left. Depressed. "zi you zi ji neng pang zi ji"

Hate birthdays. It just shows how little friends I have. Those who truly care. That's why I try to do many things for many people. Hoping some day people would do the same for me. Not making any sense here. Nvm.

Once again, ZuYou failed in changing to be a better, independent person. He wished his father could come and scold him, knocking some sense real hard into his hollow good-for-nothing head. Haiz, hopeless people like ZuYou don't last very long.

Oh yes I skipped school today.

Forget all of this.

Nothing to say. What a blue day it is for me today. Actually it's yesterday, technically. Don't know how much more I can endure until I break...

"You're my sunshine =)"
How sweet... ... ... how I wish... ... ...
Too bad.