Study!!!

I don't know whether I'll get killed writing this entry. But I'll carry on anyway. Everyone knows that O levels are coming right? Sec 4E5N students should be studying right? And here I am joining this dumb competition -.-" Haha, and I'm not one of those inteligent students. In fact, I need extra help.

Thought I could cope with both at the same time. Like they got this night study sessions. I could study during weekends and like dance on weekends. But realized I couldn't do it. Too distracted.

To make things worse, I'm getting stressed over this comp. Like what the he*l? I should be worried about the exam instead. Even til now, the choreo is not fully out yet. It's not nice at all, done by me... With the help of some videos and of course Eng Kiat. Haven't really danced the whole item before and most of them are still in the process of getting the steps right.

Think I always expect too much from the crew. For Pikachu, I think I was being a jerk, complaining and all. Then there's NJRC, I was worse then, scolding people and all. Like, who the f*ck am I? Why am I shoating at them? Haha, so I realized that and tried to relax a little now. But I still get worked up all the time when we couldn't get the steps right. Haha, will work on that...

As for my studies, I really don't feel like studying. Something is wrong here. Die liao. Told Mdm Leow about it and she says die liao lor. Haha, kidding, I don't remember what she said but I'll try studying anyway.

About the comp... don't know what I was thinking. Joining at this crucial time. I always go around saying that you can get cash if you win. Hehe, but it was never about the money. Guess I just wanted to prove something. Prove to myself that I'm doing something that I can do. prove that I don't have to keep doubting myself. Haha, crap... But in the end, I still suck. So pissed off at ZuYou. Blo*dy idiot.

Think the reader would be asleep right about now. I'll write more about this next time. I should be studying. Haha, say only -.-" Got heart no power(you xing wu li)
yup, that's about it then...

Peace y'all.