Can't sleep 2

No matter how much we believe or don't believe this, I think the people around you changes and moulds the kind of person we are. Who you are, what you do, how you think. Throughout our life, we change and we grow. Life experiences, little, big or small changes us.

I feel myself turning into people I have come to hate.

And to some people, I am probably just a passer-by, a stranger, a coincidence.

最后痛苦的只是我. I've lost almost all my self-worth. What more does my self inflicted pain and hate want to take from me.

Can't sleep 1

I have many things to do. Sometimes I don't understand why I am doing what I do. But I cannot stop to think. At least for now. Just keep going. I'm afraid if I stop to think clearly I might just break down. Let this be a race towards 2013. Please just me let pull through the last few trying weeks of this dreadful year.

I feel better as I learn to take away the "I" and the "me" from my life.