The Word

What a lame title for a post. Anyway, was looking through my sis's books a few days ago... and I found the word to describe why I am what I am now... or the reason for what's happening to me. =p I have no self-esteem. That's why.

Gonna do anything about it? Of course! Just dunno what... go for counselling? Haha, no way... (no money too :P) It helps if I don't think too much about it, but that's the same as running away from the problem. Oh well.... haha..

Fighting a 'battle' I know I can't win. But who cares!? I ain't giving up.... for now... haha. Okay, that was kinda stupid and meaningless, just typing this crap for some self-encouragement :P

Oh yea, bought Linkin Park's latest album a few days ago. Wasn't as good as the previous ones. Chester only screamed in one song :p Haha, most of the songs just seems... tired. He was more like 'mumbling very clearly'instead of singing, I would prefer him screaming like nobody's business :p Haha, and Mike sang in one of the songs instead of just rapping! Although he just repeated 2 lines for like a dozen times. Actually he did sing in 'Where You Go' in his fort miner album... Hehe

Here's a conversation between a few characters from a movie. Can't get these lines outta my head since sec 1 :p Can you guess which movie it is? =P

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A: We've been eatting maggots and bread for 3 stinking days!
B: Yea, why can't with have some meat?
C: What about them? They look fresh...
D: They are not for eating!
C: What about their legs? They don't need those... They look tasty... Arg!!!!

Haha, any ideas? Here's a clue. They're all orcs...

Peace y'all.

Nothing Left

Shit, I'm a complete failure.

I don't know what to say. Can't take all this crap anymore... I have nothing. I am nothing. And it sucks...

What is happening to ZuyOu? Nothing. And that's the problem... I'm bad at writing and describing stuff, so I can't really explain how I feel right now. Hmmmmm, feels like everyone's on the top floor of a skyscraper and here I am still stuck at the basement... Okay, that was a lousy attempt at describing how I felt =p

Think part of me is trapped inside an ice box; frozen(yet another lousy attempt) I don't have interest in doin anything anymore. Don't feel like doin anything much at all... Somebody please help me... -.-"

EK suggested taking a holiday. Come to think of it, I haven't really enjoyed the so called 'holiday' I'm having now at all. Everyday it's just the same old routine... well, most days... wake up, rot, and off to SW in the evening.. And there's classes at HK during weekends. I seriously neeed to get a life. urmz, dunno whether i should say this, but to be honest, i don't like goin there at all. Everytime I go there, I'll have to face what I fear most: the truth. Haha, guess nobody understands what the heck I'm writing in this post.

Haiz, I shouldn't be complaining. There's many people out there who's facing a lot of troubles, many people with lots of sh*t to deal with. And here I am complaining my a*s out. Should be glad that I'm not facing any problems right now since I can't even deal with myself. (what?) Haha....

Ok, anyway, the musical EVOKE is really good. Enjoyed it a lot when I watched most of the programme during the rehearsal. It was rather entertaining :P But I still don't think it's worth 20/30 bucks =p

I wanna go home.
Peace.