Half a day...

Woke up in the noon today, meaning half an hour ago. Dang, half a day gone -.-" Haven't slept like this(like a pig) for a long time. Haha, felt great for the first few minutes after waking up, mind was still half asleep. Don't remember anything depressing that happened. Oh well, then everything starts pouring back. =p

It's been two days and my left eye is still swollen(stupid contact lense!). It's not really obvious but it's uncomfortable -.-" Shouldn't complain about something like this... MUCH MUCH worse things are happening to other people :(

Oh ya, didn't get to watch Live Earth, oh well... Have a nice day y'all. Peace.

Take it to the floor no more =p

Changed the song here... (finally!!) No more take it to the floor. Haha, been wanting to change it for a long time. But dunno how and don't have the time :p Didn't realize how easy it is to put songs into blog now. Used to upload the songs myself on other sites and link it to this page. Anyway, this version of the song is nice, a lot better than the techno one. Enjoy...

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I don't know what to do anymore.

-.-zzz

Very tired... I need a break from all this.

Sigh...

So it's done?

Hey, been quite 'busy' lately... and com broke down a few weeks ago :p Hmmm, I just finished Evoke not long ago! Yea, hope we did a good show. I did only one item though.. Oh well, everyone starts out small right? Yup, gimme two more years, I'll make it big then =p (highly doubt it) Will try to upload some pics asap. Dun have a digital cam -.-" have to get pics here and there from my friends :P Studio Woosh!!! Haha.. They're gonna have a post production party at butter factory this saturday. And we're supposed to dress up like crazy cow dancers! Something like the clothes peeps in christina aguilara videos wear.. retro style :p That would be fun =p But dang, guess I won't be able to attend; have to go catch a plane...

Haha, everything went quite smoothly on tuesday. Kinda funny that it did. And I did it without a "rehearsal"! Coz changed my plan at the last minute, about 12 to 1 plus.. Glad I did, this one was much better than the other one.(and a lot more fun!) Haha, guess no one understands what I'm saying here... :p Anyway, it was really a memorable day for me =) Fire baby!!! (what the? siao liao :x)

Dang, I'm still working on my choreo. Not really cut out to do this kinda thing. Still goin no where with the "My Love" dance. Will probably be doin a medley. Four different songs most likely. Haiz, -MAY THE FORCE BE WITH ME- :P

Peace.

The Word

What a lame title for a post. Anyway, was looking through my sis's books a few days ago... and I found the word to describe why I am what I am now... or the reason for what's happening to me. =p I have no self-esteem. That's why.

Gonna do anything about it? Of course! Just dunno what... go for counselling? Haha, no way... (no money too :P) It helps if I don't think too much about it, but that's the same as running away from the problem. Oh well.... haha..

Fighting a 'battle' I know I can't win. But who cares!? I ain't giving up.... for now... haha. Okay, that was kinda stupid and meaningless, just typing this crap for some self-encouragement :P

Oh yea, bought Linkin Park's latest album a few days ago. Wasn't as good as the previous ones. Chester only screamed in one song :p Haha, most of the songs just seems... tired. He was more like 'mumbling very clearly'instead of singing, I would prefer him screaming like nobody's business :p Haha, and Mike sang in one of the songs instead of just rapping! Although he just repeated 2 lines for like a dozen times. Actually he did sing in 'Where You Go' in his fort miner album... Hehe

Here's a conversation between a few characters from a movie. Can't get these lines outta my head since sec 1 :p Can you guess which movie it is? =P

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A: We've been eatting maggots and bread for 3 stinking days!
B: Yea, why can't with have some meat?
C: What about them? They look fresh...
D: They are not for eating!
C: What about their legs? They don't need those... They look tasty... Arg!!!!

Haha, any ideas? Here's a clue. They're all orcs...

Peace y'all.

Nothing Left

Shit, I'm a complete failure.

I don't know what to say. Can't take all this crap anymore... I have nothing. I am nothing. And it sucks...

What is happening to ZuyOu? Nothing. And that's the problem... I'm bad at writing and describing stuff, so I can't really explain how I feel right now. Hmmmmm, feels like everyone's on the top floor of a skyscraper and here I am still stuck at the basement... Okay, that was a lousy attempt at describing how I felt =p

Think part of me is trapped inside an ice box; frozen(yet another lousy attempt) I don't have interest in doin anything anymore. Don't feel like doin anything much at all... Somebody please help me... -.-"

EK suggested taking a holiday. Come to think of it, I haven't really enjoyed the so called 'holiday' I'm having now at all. Everyday it's just the same old routine... well, most days... wake up, rot, and off to SW in the evening.. And there's classes at HK during weekends. I seriously neeed to get a life. urmz, dunno whether i should say this, but to be honest, i don't like goin there at all. Everytime I go there, I'll have to face what I fear most: the truth. Haha, guess nobody understands what the heck I'm writing in this post.

Haiz, I shouldn't be complaining. There's many people out there who's facing a lot of troubles, many people with lots of sh*t to deal with. And here I am complaining my a*s out. Should be glad that I'm not facing any problems right now since I can't even deal with myself. (what?) Haha....

Ok, anyway, the musical EVOKE is really good. Enjoyed it a lot when I watched most of the programme during the rehearsal. It was rather entertaining :P But I still don't think it's worth 20/30 bucks =p

I wanna go home.
Peace.

Update!

Haha, actually this is not really gonna be something important. Just posting something here for the sake of posting. Been trying to sign in for weeks already. But the blogger home page just can't finish loading -.-" Did something to the com today and viola! But it's kinda late now so won't write anything much.

Have been kinda "busy" these few weeks as usual :P, although school still HASN'T START for me. Dang,I had a lot in mind that I wanna post about actually, but having mindblock now.

Hmmmm, that's all for now. Will try to update again next time. Properly... :p k, have a nice day then =)

-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU-

Don't bother.... =p

Don't bother reading this post if you have something better to do =p

Ha, I've no idea what to write too... Kinda stupid to talk about dance all the time :P Haven't been doin anything productive since I graduated... just wasting time and all. Sianz... Gotta start 'my engine' soon.

Hmmmm, since I'm not studying anymore, I have A LOT of time to think about stuff... Important stuff, useless stuff, crap .etc And feels like I'm lost now, not literally of course. Dang, life sucks =p

Just a childish, useless boy posting something here. Please ignore this post. Peace out.

Shi Bai Shi Chen Gong Zi Mu?

Wahaha,just managed to logged in yesterday only so decided to post another entry again... :p Sadly, it's gonna be somehow related to dance again.. G-A-Y!!!

Got a call from Studio Wu this afternoon, Caleb told me that I got through the hiphop audition... Yea!! look out for me in the upcoming production baby!! But it'll just be a small role I guess. Oh well, couldn't expect more. So I was like "what about the jazz audition?" He told me he's not sure but I could check my e-mail to find out. And so begins a whole day of anticipation... Haha..

Didn't get in for jazz =( So pissed off, at nobody but particularly at myself... Guess I just wasn't good enough. No wait, when was I ever good? Great... Will really have to work hard if I were to achieve something. But where to start? Haiz, Bu yao tiao wu le lah =p

There's also that hiphop dance comp that me and my so-called crew(JuzWhack) joined last saturday. Obviously we lost... Haha, what more could you expect from a punk with failure written all over him? Was REALLY down that day after the comp, went to toa payoh to meet our dancemates from Huikuan. Phew! Luckily Laoshi wasn't there. There's no way I could face her then... Skipping class and joining some bloody competition and coming back empty-handed. Haha, Boon, Engkiat and Ed were cheering me up, saying like "it's okay, we just join for fun","We only lost coz we're not there... yet"... there's more but I forget liao =p

Was ashamed to face her too. It just sucks that I had no good news to tell her. I really wanted to impress her or something ya know? Dang....

Anyway, it wasn't a really competitive comp anyway.. and the judges were peeps from Styles From Beyond, not some famous local instructor like Patrick Loo or something... Many crews that took part were just doin the common stuffs like krumping and wacking and all. And there were quite a few which obviously didn't have technical training. Haha, they were doin all the shaking stuff wrongly :P But who am I to criticise them -.-" Haha... There were good crews too and they won of course. They were REALLY good, we were WAY OUT of our league...

I guess I took a harder fall than the rest of my crew. You see, we lost partly coz we're not good enough as dancers... obviously. As for the other reason, haiz, don't really wanna talk about it. Y'all all would know... if you think about it. Haha, but don't waste your time thinkin..

It's gettin late... wanted to type more stuff actually but if I do, you would have fallen asleep reading all this crap :p

Oh ya, heard Chong tellin the sec 1s this today during class... "If you think you can do it, you can do it" or something like that. I thought this phrase was kinda encouraging =)Haha, will keep this inside my head....

I should end this post on a good note. Been crazy over chocolates recently :p Not the expensive ones though. Peeps out there, you all should try Cadbury boost, hope I got the spelling right :P It tastes absolutely urmz.... chocolatety!!! Wahaha.. K, gotta go.

Peace out.

Finally got a Google account

Wahaha!!! I can finally logged in. So sorry to the very few peeps out there who do visit this page... Couldn't logged in for a very long time coz I don't have a google account. And when I clicked on the link to create one, the page couldn't load. Today, I decided to go straight to the google website and create one. How silly of me to have not thought of that before -.-"

Hmmm, haven't posted anything for like 2 months? I had a lot of things to say but forgot everything liao. Feels like a lot of things has happened over these past 3 months... Guess that's because I'm not schooling anymore. Schoolwork is not something I have to worry over.... for now :p Haha....

Okay, so what to type here? Hmmm... I've been kinda down recently. Seems like dance is becoming something impt in my life.. and that sounds really, urm... gay. =p Haha... I feel that I really SUCK at it. Seriously... I know I've come this far through hardwork. I've got no talent and natural ability, and it's starting to piss me off. Since I'm starting to slack abit, I have nothing good left -.-" Gotta start my engine again soon. Oh ya, and I'm still not flexible -.-"

Actually there's a lot of things I wanna say bout dance(sound so gay again!) but I'm just too lazy... =p

Haiz, think I've changed a lot since the last post, but is it for the better I don't know. One thing that hasn't change is that I'm still kinda short -.-

Just realized I have very little friends. Since I graduated, I don't see my schoolmates anymore... Only people in this world that I have contact with are the peeps from Huay Kuan. Sianz...

Anyway, I'm kinda wondering exactly who visits this page. Have never advertised this blog anywhere so nobody really know this blog exists actually.. Haha, so can anyone who sees this entry post a comment here? Thanks, haha...

Oh yea, haven't written this words for a long time. So here goes
-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU-

Peace y'all.

Chocolates... =)

Been quite some time since I came back. And I still haven't brought the chocolates to HK; keep forgetting -.-" Oh well, maybe I'll eat them all myself :P

Was feeling like sh*t on Saturday. Happens all the time. The truth really hurts and the truth is... I suck. Was learning this Ming Jian Wu and I can't even get the dong li and the simple footwork right. Then there's that Shen Yun routine. That really s*cks man. No wait, I'm the one who s*ck :P Haha, and I was hit with the truth. *ahbish!

So I decided to practise more on Sunday. Went down early to practise. But I don't see any improvement. At least I can finally remember the routines. Haha, the modern dance was nice. Can see why they call it 'fun'. But it isn't easy... Will have to practise real hard to do better.

Have no idea why I'm posting all this here. Who gives a sh*t anyway? Haha, so here's some things that I found out. It's really true... Hope it helps you all as well in one way or another =)
1. You can't dance well unless you're carrying a positive attitude.
2. Work towards a goal to improve.
3. I suck. =p

Haha, the last point was crap... Gotta go. See y'all
- MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU -

In Da house

Yo! Guess who's back? Returned from Europe yesterday morning. Was kinda tired. Didn't sleep ,much on the plane. Hmmm... what to say about Europe? Nothing to say leh. Haha, guess I'm just too lazy to think. That's why =p

Europe is a very beautiful place. That's all I can think of. The buildings are all very hmm.... 'artistic'? Full of detailed statues and stuff. We went there just to visit ancient historical buildings and magnificent structures -.-" Haha, what's so fun about that? But it really is a beautiful sight. Nothing like what you see in Singapore. All you'll see here are HDBs and stuff -.-" No offence, LKY or any gov peeps I've offended =p

Haha, went to many places in Europe. And they all have nice churches. I wonder whether the churches in Singapore are similar to those there? Nah,, most of the churches there are ennormous...

Oh yah, my four-legged sister is back! Haha, miss her so much =) Looks like she has lost some weight. Are the 'hotels' ill treating the 'guests'. Haha, crap.

Year 2007 is here. Man, can't believe one year is gone. The years I spend in secondary school seems to end faster every year. Feel like sec 1 and 2 are the longest years I had and sec 3 and 4 are very short. Well, that makes everything even doesn't it? =p Haha, crap again...

No school for me tomorrow =p Wahaha...
Peace y'all.

-Euro Trip-

Yo. This would be the last entry for this year I guess... Going to Europe later; will only be back next year. Haha, actually, that is only like 11 days away =p

I have no idea which part of Europe I'm going -.-" Haha, I have to go really soon already so it's a bit difficult to think of what to type here now. Will try to get some souvenirs.. haha; and oh yes, my Laoshi gave me 50 bucks just to get key chains for her. Must buy those so called 'special' ones.

K, I guess that's it. Won't be dancing for this year le. Still got exam when I come back. And there's two more performances. I doubt I'll have enough time to practise when I come back. Si liao lah... :P Realized I like to say that a lot =)

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to everyone out there!!! =) and...
-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU-

Peace y'all.

A Quick One...

I need to wake up early tomorrow, will go sleep soon. Haha, hadn't update for quite some time already. Just realized that my previous entry was written on prom night. Dang, I didn't go to prom night -.-"

Dance camp has started. And the Min Jian Wu course has ended. Whew! Had been a stressfull four days; even though the routines were so darn easy to do and remember -.-" Think all of us will pass. Or at least the dancers from SHHK =P During this course I was reminded of a very important fact... It is easier to dance with a positive attitude than a stressed one. Yea, that's true. Maybe that's why I can perform better at a hip hop routine.

We(aka 7788) performed during the HK dinner last friday. Many of us forgot our steps. I did too. And I fell when I did that 'se7en' thang. But it was an okay performance I think. The people applauded and cheered when we did our last pose. My Laoshi praised me too; And that was the very thing I wanted out of this performance. I was so touched that I almost cried. But I was in the wrong atmosphere -.-" A lively song was played and everyone was clapping. Oh well...

Many people, including me, is so depressed this few days. What the he*l is happening man? Wish this whole sh*t will be over soon. Haha, can't believe I'm saying this. I'm feeling stressed now instead of during the O levels. Something is really wrong here =p

Peace y'all. And to everyone out there. Do cheer up! =)

What the?

Can't believe I'm saying this. I miss going to school... I miss the class assemblys, the principal's stupid morning 'speech'. I miss all the lessons I have in class. Come to think of it, I don't think I ever paid attention in class. 75% of the time. So sorry to all my teachers and myself too -.-"

Here's a short summary of what I normally do in class besides the 25% of studying. Hope my teachers don't see this =p

Miss Fu's Chem: Dreaming and sometimes sleeping
Mr Radha's A-maths: either sleeping or writing with my left hand
Mr Goh's E-maths: Dreaming or listening to the lesson(really!)
Miss Chen's Humanities: Trying hard to listen but always fall asleep halfway
Mr Foo's Physics: sleeping or trying to pay attention
Mrs Yeo's English: slacking or smsing
Mdm Leow's Chinese: trying VERY hard to pay attention

Don't know why I post this. It's all crap. Just ignore it.

Peace y'all.

It's finally over 2!

Guess what? It's the same heading as the previous! Haha... my last paper is finally over =) History's history. Bet I'll fail that paper. The chapter that I studied didn't come out. As for SBQ, they asked mostly contextual knowledge questions; and I didn't study =p

Anyway, I'm so glad my papers are all over. But I still have many things to do. Like.... I have no idea. The remaining days for this year are gonna be busy ones...

Crap, I still can't believe O levels is over. And I was just getting my engine started. Haha, too late. Hope I won't cry when I get the results. Probably get a decent below average grade =p

Just watched another one of LUSH's performances on youtube. Dang, can't believe they joined the Step Up competition too. That was like between the preliminary and finals of the chingay comp. But they did pull it off. They did a routine quite similar to the one they did for pulse hiphop, and I think they won for the step up one -.-" Talk about killing two birds with one stone.

Haven't watched Step Up yet. Think I'll catch it sometime next week, if there is time =p

-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU-

It's finally over!

Haha, just want to say something about what happened last sunday. We didn't win, as expected. Got the consolation prize... 200 bucks leh!!! It isn't much actually, once you divide it among the crew =p

Was damn nervous before we went up. When the first group went up, I was like, "Sh*t, we're gonna embarass ourselves." Luckily, we were not before the army boys group. They could literally OWN us. I guess we didn't threw our faces after all.

MATKinc. was doing their thang as usual. Those kids are damn good at what they're doing... Their instructor must have something for Michael Jackson. All his choreography have a piece of his song. And this time, one of the kids even did a MJ impersonation. Very cool. They got the 1st runner up.

For the open catergory, I was shocked when Blast Junior High won. Their dance was so rated 18. Haha, they were all dressed as nerdy students and they dance in a "horny" way. Actually this was an idea from SYTYCD. There was a routine by Shane Sparks which was like this. Even the song is the same. I thought they wouldn't win. But when I watch their dance again on youtube... man, they were really good! But it's hard to see their nice choreo, unless you're able to pull your eyes away from the mini skirts the gals were wearing =p

Oh ya, and here's a group pic we took. Let me explain why Boon and I had this stupid face. Engkiat told us to pull an ugly face for the shot. But in the end we kena pangseh. Oh well.... Jesper isn't in this pic as he had to rush to work =(

We had a great time. And it was a meaningful experience for me.

Pulse Hip Hop Knockout

The competition is on this coming Sunday at Ngee Ann Civic Plaza. Starts at 3. We'll just win the consolation prize but do come support!!! =P

Peace y'all.

Tick Tock..

Time's running out. Really need to chiong studies liao. E-maths and SS paper is on the coming monday. Dang, now I really need to work hard just to get a decent grade -.-" It'll take a miracle for me to get good marks.

I'm hopeless at humanities. Can't remember a single thing. Why??? Haha, maybe I should focus more on the other subjects.

Shit, I really need to pia liao. Stupid me. Always you xin wu li. Excuses only... *sigh. Been posting short entries recently. Too lazy to write anything crappy here. Oh yah, my com still view this blogger website in chinese. Is there any way to change it back to ang moh?

Suddenly my future is all clouded. And I thought I had everything planned out. Will think about it again after the exams.

Peace.