Monday morning...

Haha, just a posting some nonsense here. Today's finally a half day for me! Been rehearsing til late at night for the past week. The thesis show's on wednesday, hope everything goes smoothly for me. Hmmmm, should practise more. Haha...

Oh yea, today's a half day, but I gotta go HK for practice in the evening, gotta get that timing right! -_-" There goes my free time again. Well there's always tomorrow =p

Peace.

Beowulf!

Yeah!!! The first show of Beowulf Jam went quite successfully. I was very worried coz I jump straight into another dancer during the rehearsal. And I slipped on the left wing curtain when I was exiting. Haha... But it was pretty alright for me during the show yesterday. A big thank you to all supporters =p She couldn't make it for the show ytd. I was really disappointed =( It would have been great if she came. Don't know what's goin through my head. I started to cry when everything's starting. Haha, and it was the make-up holding back the tears. Would ruin the whole eye-liner if I start sobbing. Gotta stop acting like a crybaby.

One more show to go tonight... =] Wish me luck!!! Wahaha...

Peace y'all.

Ouch!!!

My thumb really hurts. =( The nail's gone all black. And they say the nail will eventually fall off. Dang, that's gonna be an ugly sight. Haha...

Peace.

Monday Night.

Time is flying. Days are going by. Hours and minutes are ticking. I feel that I am still stuck at where I am. Moving on was never easy.

Finally, "He Wu Gong Ming"'s over. Opera's over. Oh yea, now there's time for other stuff :) Realized I got a lot of dance to remember in school. Mind block! There's Loretta's piece, Albert's piece, Yarra's piece, Jenny's piece. Not to forget the dance for Beowulf Jam. It's a production put up by all the foundation students, and we are way behind schedule! Only got around four weeks left to rehearse.

Haha, wish me luck! =D

I think of you all the time. =( I guess I really miss you. But it's not really you that I'm missing. I miss the times when there was you,

and me.

Be happy.

I wanna live a better life. A happier life. My mother says I'm not allowing myself to. Guess she's right. I'm the one grieving over something long gone. I'm trying to find it back and fail everytime. Keep falling and falling. Useless and pointless.

I want to smile and laugh about it but I just can't.

我愿意改变 (what can I do?)
重新再来一遍(just give me change)
我无法只是普通朋友
感情已那么深
叫我怎么能收手
但你说
I only want to be your friend
做个朋友
我在
你心中只是just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
So I
我不能只是be your friend
I just can't be your friend
no,no,no,
我不能只是做你的朋友
不能只是做普通朋友

Emo sia :P

Sh*t. I'm so... Why is it I have no confidence? I wanna be confident, I wanna be a independent person who people can count on. It takes a lot of will to change.

I guess what I always wanted is someone who can encourage me. Give me the confidence I so often lack. I always wanted someone who cares about what I do, enjoys what I do. I always wanted someone who doesn't mind keeping me company. I always wanted someone who could make me happy and I in turn can give happiness too.

That is really too much to ask for. I guess all I wanted is love. Stupid kid.

Why

Crystals forming in the eye. They've been coming for the past few days. I can't control myself anymore. I don't what it is I'm looking for, what it is I want.

I feel so alone. I feel, sad.

One day down... millions more to go

I guess it's one of those days where I could think and function logically. Went to school, had class... lunch... class, fell asleep halfway through performance history... had rehearsal.... off to studio wu for class.... go home.

Haha, and I've finished my journal assignment due tml. =p Finally have some "free" time. But still go lotsa things to do =[ Always get caught up in all sorts of crap.

Hmmm, I think I'm trying to make peace with myself. There are important things to be done. No use crying over my sorrows... =(

I wonder what she's doing now...

Don tink too much lahz

I know it's just a thing of the mind. But I just can't help it. Seems like misery has become my new best friend. -_-"

VDay

Happy Valentine's Day =) What a boring stupid day...

What a year.

I read through my posts here in 2007. I realized I don't talk much about the two of us. It's mostly about my silly problems with dance, especially the dec showcase. I guess the reason why I didn't write much about that is I hope someday,you'll come across this page, and understand more abt me. You never did of course. Haha...

It ended somewhere in July. I guess I was taking it quite well for a while. Then in August, that's when I started cracking up. Every now and then there were melancholic entries by a very depressed, heart-broken man. (Well, most of the time actually, I realized :p)

Hate it when I grieve over the past. Nothing's gonna come out of it. "Move on dude."

I miss you. I really do.

Not again.

Just wanna say the same thing which I've posted here before...
I can't remember the last time I was truly happy.

I don't know what I want.

From 07 to 08

Yay, been better these few weeks. Life's a lot easier to go through this way.It's chinese new year chu yi today. For some reason I woke up 5 plus in the morning. Watched Sweeny Todd with EK and RL ytd. Very nice show. You can never get tired of musicals :P Haha, but I think live musical theatre performances are much better. You can really 'feel' the performers.

Not visiting much relatives this year again. That makes 2 years in row. Oh well... Who enjoys going bai nian anyway. Except for the money maybe.

I'm haunted by year 2007. It's been a year. It's like I'm 're-living' everything. Everyday I look at the date and recall what I did last year on this day. All the crap I put myself through, all the regrets, all the pointless sorrow... the happy thoughts... the happy moments... the beautiful moments. Gone. Everything lost.

No point grieving over the past. Got loads more to deal with now. Wait for me please. Nobody's perfect. (I'm nobody. Nah, just playin :p) One has to learn to care for oneself before learning to care for others.

寂寞男孩的悲哀, 说出来，谁明白
Haha, a line from a familiar song =p

Stupid

I hate myself for getting f*cked up over these foolish things.

The same

Haha, I guess I'm not much different from everyone out there. =p

Human

I'm not strong. Stab me, I'll bleed. Hurt me, and I'll cry.

Far far away.

Trapped. Been hell for me all over again these few days. Everytime I try to go more, it just hurts more. To back out, I don't have the courage to. Now I'm stucked in the middle of nowhere. Being oblivious and ignorant to myself isn't helping.

You can say I'm having one of those nights again. Maybe coz this is the time I can't find things to occupy myself with. And my mind just drifts back to the same damn heartache that's been haunting me ever since... ever since then.

Trust.I wish it can be easy.

"Everyone has their dream. But some just don't have the drive."

Endless Road

The truth is tearing up my heart
I can't recognise this place
The endless road without a stop sign
Can't even find a stranger this time

Why am I still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there's nothing left to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Everytime I ask if this would be the last

Why am I still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather
But it just draws me deeper
How do I get out of this
I think~ I never will

A crystal forming in the eye
Maybe this would be the last
The winding path down my face
Till I begin to taste the bitterness inside

Why am I still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there's nothing left to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Everytime I ask if this would be the last

Why am I still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather
But it just draws me deeper
How do I get out of this
I think~ I never will

I never will

Regrets.

There are many things I regret doing. And many I regret not doing.

One Last Dance

I 'rewarded' myself with a VCD today :p Haha, it's an old film called One Last Dance. It's quite nice. But I don't think someone who has never tried dance would understand it fully. They would never know the hardships dancers go through, and the passion inside them.

Haha, anyway, it's nice lah, that's what I wanna say. :p Have a nice day y'all.

Dementor?

I don't know why, but depression comes to me every night. I should sleep early and just forget everything.

Empty.

I guess it's just one of those nights... depressed. It sucks living with a feeling of emptiness. I don't know why but ever since that happened I cannot stand being alone. Gotta learn to be more independent -.-"

Haha, having fried rice now. Cooked it myself :P But my mum was guiding me, again. It's so hard to remember what to do first. The sausages, the egg, the rice, the crabmeat, the salt, the 'jiang qin' (I forgot what it is in eng :p) So confusing... Luckily it still tasted alright. But if you guys don't see me tomorrow you'll probably know what's the cause of it.

I hope it's just one of those nights. Coz I ain't feelin so good right now. Hate my loser life. Maybe if I work really hard, eveything would work out fine. To be cold... I'm not one who's bold enough to do that. I don't know how to just walk away. Not making much sense again.

Peace y'all. Oh ya, by the way, Lasalle's having an informal showing in school this coming friday, at H102 on the first floor. Starts at 6. Do come watch if you have got nothing else better to do :P Zu You will be appearing in a short 'animal-like' routine, Loretta's piece, and a short rhythm performance. Wish him luck!

Next Time.

I look at the man in the mirror and I don't like what I see. The way he looks. The way he behaves. The way he thinks. Time for a change.

Somehow, it makes me feel a little better to voice my sadness here. So this page is soon becoming a dull one about a boy writing about miserable things. Hmmm, maybe I should do this; makes it easier to keep things to myself at other times. The world doesn't have to see this side of me. To the peeps who do come here, I thank you for allowing me to share this with you. Besides, nobody likes a depressed, anti-social person.

Somehow I got to make it on my own. I have to. Slowly but surely, I'm fading...

Next time.

Keeping It Real.

Reached home at 11 plus. I just happened to switch on the tv and there's a movie on HBO. "Hustle and Flow". Find it inspiring.

"Everybody's gotta have a dream."

Yea, but that's just what they are. Dreams.

Way Over My Head

Don't really know how to describe it. I just feel very "mixed up" recently. And it isn't a good feeling -.-"

Have a good day everyone.

Way Back Into Love

Haha, just happen to listen to this song on the computer. Here are bits and pieces of the lyrics from the song...

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end.

Have a nice day everyone.

Alive?

Life isn't fair. I don't have my fair share of ups and downs. What a bad way to start off writing. Been a jerk these few days. Hope I didn't bother everyone too much. I still am now. Sorry. I'm gonna break soon...

Was feeling bad the whole day yesterday. I really can't do this kind of choreography. I'm not that experienced yet. Now I don't how to continue with it. Was never a creative person =( In secondary school, it took me almost 20minutes to think of what to write for a composition. What ever happened to my right brain? It's not there maybe or it hasn't ever been used.

Starting to go back to how I was again. I'm certain it's not normal to cry almost every night. Just can't help it. Weak idiot -.-" Yea, they say I just think too much. Then how do you think less? Looking at how my life is going, I feel like sh*t these few days. Can't remember the last time I had some happiness. Now there's nothing left. Depressed. "zi you zi ji neng pang zi ji"

Hate birthdays. It just shows how little friends I have. Those who truly care. That's why I try to do many things for many people. Hoping some day people would do the same for me. Not making any sense here. Nvm.

Once again, ZuYou failed in changing to be a better, independent person. He wished his father could come and scold him, knocking some sense real hard into his hollow good-for-nothing head. Haiz, hopeless people like ZuYou don't last very long.

Oh yes I skipped school today.

Forget all of this.

Nothing to say. What a blue day it is for me today. Actually it's yesterday, technically. Don't know how much more I can endure until I break...

"You're my sunshine =)"
How sweet... ... ... how I wish... ... ...
Too bad.

In the Middle of the Night.

Life's been really tiring these few days. Been crushed by all the assignments given. Hmmm... will take a half-day off next week if there's time =p Hehe..

I realized I don't use my brain as much as I should. Dumb. Talk about "All brawn and no brain". But I'm not really muscular in the first place -.-" That makes me "No brawn and no brain", meaning "useless".

Had a tough dance day today. A**ert Ti*ng fired up quite a few times during contemporary class today. I was even singled out to do one of the exercises. Luckily I wasn't yelled at. Phew! Today is the first time I heard him scolding in full sentences. Last time all I heard is "Shit!", or "Stupid!" Haha... Something "embarassing" happened to me during ballet class today; Shhhh!!! Don't tell anyone... I cried =( Just got fed up of how I can't do ballet... And nobody gives as much a damn about me as the others. I'm on my own, gotta improve faster... :p In movement class, Mr Aaron talk to us more about the 'dark' dance world out there. I hate it when they keep 'complaining', but I'll just keep silent at a corner. It's okay to work at our own suitable pace. But like him, I would very much like to soar up to the sky asap. without causing too much injuries to myself of course :p Life is short, especially a dancer's life.

For a moment or two today, I felt different. I felt I could live my own life again, without you. Haha... is that a good thing or a bad thing? I don't know. My yao's getting worse. Maybe should go see a doctor about it.

Gotta start doing my voice assignments now. Hope I can get at least 3 hours of sleep tonight. Have a nice day y'all.

-.-zzz

Hooray! I finally finsh my Learning and Research assignments. There goes my sleep though -.-zzz Haha, gotta go off to school soon -.-zzzz

Have a nice day y'all -.-zzz

The things that you do...

You're the one who can bring me joy and happiness. You're also the one who can make me sad. You made me shed a thousand tears for you. It's not worth it, but I just can't help it.

Not in a very good mood right now. Haha, when was I ever in a good mood. Stress...

Hope I can do something by the end of this miserable lonely night. I seek comfort from you, but I just can't find any. Shit, I'm going crazy. Need to sleep.

Oh ya, went to watch NAFA's show today. Amazing.

Don't bother.

PEOPLE, DON'T BOTHER READING THIS.

I'm really miserable. I feel that I am useless. I feel that I am hopeless. I feel that I can't get anything done. I feel that things can't be done my way.

No wait... I am useless. I am hopeless. I can't get anything done. Things can't be done my way. Arggg, I suck.

Haha, no use f*cking up. It ain't gonna help at all. Just wanna 'scream' my a*s off somewhere. Guess I need a shoulder to lean on.

When I needed you the most. You weren't there.
Sh*t, a tear almost came out when I typed that. Managed to held it back. Gotta shake this feeling off. It's not gonna do anyone any good.

Good Nite.

Wasting time? Or not?

Alamak! It's almost 3am. I spent the whole night watching dance videos of all kinds on youtube. Saw a lot of "innovative hip hop", smart people =P It kinda scares me how amazing trained dancers can be. It made me realize too how much I still have to work on. At the rate I'm going, I'm never gonna make it big. Oh man, jiayou! *pat on the back.

Haha, I dunno whether I was wasting my time. I am still crushed by all my incomplete assignments. And here I am still not using time to do it. What the heck am I thinking? I feel that time's still far ahead of me (slow down lah! -.-")

Anyway, should get some sleep. Will need lots of energy; having "Shaolin" modern dance tml. Wahaha!

I really wanna be good. But sometimes I just can't seem to put in enough hardwork. I wanna change the man in the mirror.

Nothing I could do.

I don't know why but I can't bring myself to write long long posts recently. I do write a lot for my journal assignments. Hmmm, maybe I should post those assignments here. But who cares anyway, I realize only a few people come to this page. Maybe just one person. Haha...

There's really a lot I wanna say. Maybe I'll write about it next time. Not in a good mood right now. No, it's not about what I've always been depressing about. It's just me. I hate myself coz I'm not a person of good character. I've always respect people with good character, I don't give a damn about successful people. But I realized I'm an asshole myself. I try to change, I really do, but I can't

Give me more time. Dad, you really are a successful person. You worked hard from the bottom up and I fucking well know, coz that's what you keep saying. You did many things well and gave us a lot. But there's something you should know; you fail as a father, my father. Dad, I hope you'll never read this. Coz this is the only thing I have to say to you: FUCK YOU

Maybe I'm just really angry right now and don't mean it. Or maybe I do. Shit. I'll change, for you and you but not you. Dang, I should remove this post.

Why are you so sad?

Wrong place at the wrong time.

I'm using the computer inside the green room of the esplanade now =p Haha, wanted to reach extra early to mentally prepare myself, but I only arrive half an hour earlier. And here I am typing some useless stuff when I should be warming up for the company class starting at 2. (-.-)zzz

Doing my first show for this piece tonight. I'm kinda nervous. It has been performed by the lasalle graduates before. I know there's no way I can do better than the previous dancer who did this role. But hell, I'm gonna do my best of course. Haha, wish me luck!

Peace y'all. (^(oo)^)

Stupid dream...

I had a dream last night. And when I woke up, it just makes me "sick". I thought I've gotten better already. But these few days I'm starting to be like I used to again, depressed. Now I'm back to being a good-for-nothing loser. -.-" Alamak!

I'm late, gotta bounce. See ya.

Just a thought.

Was showering just now and this came into my mind; I find that I'm good at disappointing people, especially myself.

I'm not happy. And I can't remember the last time I truly was.

Mentioned earlier that I won't post anymore complains. You know what? I lied... =p Wahaha!!! Sorry ;P

Thursday Morning.

I just happen to pass by this page. And when I listened to the song playing... wow, I really enjoy listening to this song =p I don't know the lyrics though, but the whole song just seems so sad =(

Been kinda busy these few days. My whole body's aching all over. But when time comes, the so called "en-dolphins" will ease my pain. Haha, I still sucked though -.-" No pain, no gain..;p That's what you have to keep in mind when stretching.

I really wanna do something good, I wanna be good. But so far it's not working out, so hard!!! *Sigh... Sometimes I wish I was smart. Haha, I'm kinda glad everyone doesn't expect much from a 'boy' like me. Gives me less stress. I look at those talented/gifted dancers and I see how tiring it is for them to live up to themselves. But they can all do it though, they did.

I better go find something else to do other than sitting here typing all this nonsensical(did I spell that right?) stuff. DON'T GIVE UP! When life turns its back on you, just smile and walk on... ... ... Peace y'all.

I wish...

Sometimes it isn't easy.


Was it something I said to make you turn away
To make you walk away and leave me cold
If I could just find a way, to make it so that you
were right here, right now...

I've been sitting here

can't get you off my mind

I try my best to be a man and be strong

I drive myself insane wishing I could touch your face

But the truth remains that you're gone.

Gone. You're gone.

Good luck to everyone for the upcoming shows. Stay confident! =)

Gone for so long...

Haven't been updating this page. I don't think I will. Coz everytime I do you'll see me complaning my a*s off here. So unless I have something else to post. I'll rather not write something here. Haha, and I'm kinda busy too.

I've always said I wanted to change. I can't remember how many times I told myself that already. Everytime I thought I am becoming a better person I never did. Let's hope this time I'll really succeed. Maybe then will you see something in me.

To the world out there, please don't give up on me. Peace y'all

This phrase came into my mind a few days ago. Thought it sounded funny and rude so I'll just write it here anyway =p Hope I don't offend anyone.
"Life's a bitch. Give it a shot."

B.U.S.Y

Busy busy... Got lots of stuff to deal with. Seems like my posts are getting shorter and shorter -.-"

To all my friends out there... Cheer up! Smile! Peace y'all.

A Shattered Heart.

Something's terribly wrong with me. And it's tearing me apart.

Sometimes I wish...

Never have.

I hate myself.

Start that engine, dude.

30th September is coming soon... And I still got nothing. What should I do? Anything would be better than nothing. -.-" Dang

'The depth of life will dim my temptation to live for you.'
Haha, just a line inside the song. Have a good day y'all.

Can't help it.

Been reading harry potter recently. Seems like I came close with a dementor. =p

I feel like shit. I really do. Why is this happening. Chocolate ain't helping at all. Haha...

The world keeps going and it keeps on spinning, leaving me behind. Alone.

there and back again.

Oh no, it's starting all over again. Wish me luck

Peace.

Oh No...

Something is wrong with me.

S.T.R.E.S.S

Haha, amendments to the previous post. Ain't gonna do Lip Gloss anymore. No time, also because I suck? Will just stick to the other two songs. Oh no! It's not even complete yet... and there's still a lot to work on, formations and maybe also another set of choreo? Coz it didn't look really great with just 8 peeps dancing the same thing in the cenre. Oh well... And auditions on this coming saturday. Last day for them to practise tomorrow. It's gonna be a tight competition. Although it's a concert. Dang, I HATE working under stress. "stress makes or breaks a man" It breaks me.

Performing 'Small River Sweet Water' this sunday. Haha, it's not the real name, just a lame direct translation =p (Xiao He Tang Shui). Mdm Leow wants us(the guys) to cut our hair short to look more student-like since we're performing under RS. No way am I gonna cut it short. Hell no.. =p Will try using hair clips and pins to 'tie' it up. If it doesn't works, then a gloomy trip to the barber this sunday morning would seem unavoidable. -.-" Anyway, haven't been really practising this dance. In fact, I didn't even have confidence in doing this, even in the first show. Didn't understand the choreo entirely when I first learnt from Mr Small Wind :P And I still haven't now. Hope my 'go full out' mood is enough to avoid criticisms =(

Really need to work on the choreo. I'm so dead... Speaking of dead, just watched 'Just Like Heaven' on HBO. My sis told me it's a great show, and it really is. Enjoyed it =) Think it's directed by the same person who did freaky friday and mean girls. Can see some similarities in it. Somewhere near the end of the movie, the main character gets shit(not literally..) smacked in the face, and somehow it works out at the end. Haha... what a lousy way to describe it.

-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU-

Lip Gloss is cool.... =p

Stupid title. I'm so DEAD. Realized I'm the only one with nothing still. The others already have two and a half minutes of choreography or somewhere there. After that so called 'preview', I'm back to square one. Don't think what I did will work out. Haha, at least it wouldn't be wasted, the RS chi dancers wanna use that unfinished 'routine' that I did for the Teacher's Day concert =)

Audition's this coming thursday. Haha, not much time for them. Added in another song at the back, two minutes of Lip Gloss =p Haha, nice song with a catchy beat. Am I stupid or what, coz for some reason, I was kinda eager to help them. Even when I still got that dance item for dec's show to work on. I guess I just wanted to try doin what I like... Haha =p ???

As for the dec showcase, dang, still lost... I have no idea what to do? Artistic? Exactly what is artistic? Sh*t, I'm stupid -.-" Gotta think out of the box... Be creative. Why is it so hard? =( Man, I suck... =/

Trying to find a music to work on. All those I used and listened too are too.... urmz, plain? Problem is, what kinda music do I wanna use? What kinda dance am I doin? Don't know myself... dumb.

"D'oh!!!" - Homer Simpson.
It makes me laugh everytime I hear him make that sound. Haha.... D'oh!

Peace y'all.

Good Morning

Woke up earlier than usual today. zzz
Haha...

Lost/Alone

Yo. Got nothing to do so decided to post something here. Life sucks recently... Help!!! I'm lost... Haha, wake up everyday with no goals/objectives; meaning I have 'nothing' to do! Well, there is the pile of books that I should read and the dance item to work on, but dang, it's really sickening to do dance-related stuff everyday. Wonder how I'll survive when school starts. Haha...

Something is wrong with zuyou =p Can't get things done. Either I didn't try, or gave up trying. Ain't getting anywhere at all. It's like wasting time away... Oh yea, been waiting for this cafe at amk hub to gimme a call to inform me when I can start work. They haven't called yet, and I doubt they would -.-" oh well, can't hurt to wait a few days more.

Gotta change this lazy attitude asap. Maybe it's coz of the lack of work and stuff to do. 8months without goin to school can really make a person go mad =p Haha... kiddin.

To all ma peeps out there, don't let anything bring you down. Jiayou!!!
-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU- and me too

I have no idea what to choreograph for the Dec show. Any advice/suggestions? =D
Peace.

Si Liao Lah!!!

Didn't went so well on thursday... think I already saw that coming. Everything was done halfway and I don't even have the whole picture myself. Oh well... guess I could have never complete it since I keep telling myself I can't -.-" Need to come up with something different. Gotta work more on the whole choreography thing, not just some routine where everyone stands in a window formation and do their steps. *sigh

Does one come up with the whole choreo before they find the suitable music or after? Haha, I'm confused. Si liao lah... not much time left. And still need to find time to 'train up' the dancers and myself too =p

Live life to the fullest.
-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU-

stupid SYTYCD =p

Why.... why? Was looking through videos on youtube. And guess what, found a video of an opening dance by the top 16 from SYTYCD3. They were all dressed like african tribe peeps. They were dancing to the 'Lioness's Hunt' -.-" Somehow that pissed me off. It was really cool. There were moves like spins, turns and even b-boy freezes, but it still looks wild, ya know what I mean. Dang... I tried choreographing the front before and it sucks. Makes me wanna go bang a wall. 7 words.

Peace.

Stress, Choreo

Very stress over the choreography thing right now. It's wrong to be stressed right? Haha, have no idea what I'm saying. It's just that, mine's not good enough compared to the others. Obviously, there's a lack in formations and the concept is a little different. Sh*t, I'm so dead... Maybe the way I imagine the whole item is nice, but when I really try to do it, it just isn't. -.-"

Dang, gotta find some way do this properly. More dancers maybe? Find 'professional dancers'? =p Still have a lot to work on...

I suck. <0.o>

I miss you.

Can't Give Up

"Nothing comes without hard work." This words were finally knocked into my head today. A loser like me is never gonna learn(yea, keep telling yourself this and you're never gonna make it).

New day tml. Wish me luck.

-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU-

Half a day...

Woke up in the noon today, meaning half an hour ago. Dang, half a day gone -.-" Haven't slept like this(like a pig) for a long time. Haha, felt great for the first few minutes after waking up, mind was still half asleep. Don't remember anything depressing that happened. Oh well, then everything starts pouring back. =p

It's been two days and my left eye is still swollen(stupid contact lense!). It's not really obvious but it's uncomfortable -.-" Shouldn't complain about something like this... MUCH MUCH worse things are happening to other people :(

Oh ya, didn't get to watch Live Earth, oh well... Have a nice day y'all. Peace.

Take it to the floor no more =p

Changed the song here... (finally!!) No more take it to the floor. Haha, been wanting to change it for a long time. But dunno how and don't have the time :p Didn't realize how easy it is to put songs into blog now. Used to upload the songs myself on other sites and link it to this page. Anyway, this version of the song is nice, a lot better than the techno one. Enjoy...

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I don't know what to do anymore.

-.-zzz

Very tired... I need a break from all this.

Sigh...

So it's done?

Hey, been quite 'busy' lately... and com broke down a few weeks ago :p Hmmm, I just finished Evoke not long ago! Yea, hope we did a good show. I did only one item though.. Oh well, everyone starts out small right? Yup, gimme two more years, I'll make it big then =p (highly doubt it) Will try to upload some pics asap. Dun have a digital cam -.-" have to get pics here and there from my friends :P Studio Woosh!!! Haha.. They're gonna have a post production party at butter factory this saturday. And we're supposed to dress up like crazy cow dancers! Something like the clothes peeps in christina aguilara videos wear.. retro style :p That would be fun =p But dang, guess I won't be able to attend; have to go catch a plane...

Haha, everything went quite smoothly on tuesday. Kinda funny that it did. And I did it without a "rehearsal"! Coz changed my plan at the last minute, about 12 to 1 plus.. Glad I did, this one was much better than the other one.(and a lot more fun!) Haha, guess no one understands what I'm saying here... :p Anyway, it was really a memorable day for me =) Fire baby!!! (what the? siao liao :x)

Dang, I'm still working on my choreo. Not really cut out to do this kinda thing. Still goin no where with the "My Love" dance. Will probably be doin a medley. Four different songs most likely. Haiz, -MAY THE FORCE BE WITH ME- :P

Peace.

The Word

What a lame title for a post. Anyway, was looking through my sis's books a few days ago... and I found the word to describe why I am what I am now... or the reason for what's happening to me. =p I have no self-esteem. That's why.

Gonna do anything about it? Of course! Just dunno what... go for counselling? Haha, no way... (no money too :P) It helps if I don't think too much about it, but that's the same as running away from the problem. Oh well.... haha..

Fighting a 'battle' I know I can't win. But who cares!? I ain't giving up.... for now... haha. Okay, that was kinda stupid and meaningless, just typing this crap for some self-encouragement :P

Oh yea, bought Linkin Park's latest album a few days ago. Wasn't as good as the previous ones. Chester only screamed in one song :p Haha, most of the songs just seems... tired. He was more like 'mumbling very clearly'instead of singing, I would prefer him screaming like nobody's business :p Haha, and Mike sang in one of the songs instead of just rapping! Although he just repeated 2 lines for like a dozen times. Actually he did sing in 'Where You Go' in his fort miner album... Hehe

Here's a conversation between a few characters from a movie. Can't get these lines outta my head since sec 1 :p Can you guess which movie it is? =P

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A: We've been eatting maggots and bread for 3 stinking days!
B: Yea, why can't with have some meat?
C: What about them? They look fresh...
D: They are not for eating!
C: What about their legs? They don't need those... They look tasty... Arg!!!!

Haha, any ideas? Here's a clue. They're all orcs...

Peace y'all.

Nothing Left

Shit, I'm a complete failure.

I don't know what to say. Can't take all this crap anymore... I have nothing. I am nothing. And it sucks...

What is happening to ZuyOu? Nothing. And that's the problem... I'm bad at writing and describing stuff, so I can't really explain how I feel right now. Hmmmmm, feels like everyone's on the top floor of a skyscraper and here I am still stuck at the basement... Okay, that was a lousy attempt at describing how I felt =p

Think part of me is trapped inside an ice box; frozen(yet another lousy attempt) I don't have interest in doin anything anymore. Don't feel like doin anything much at all... Somebody please help me... -.-"

EK suggested taking a holiday. Come to think of it, I haven't really enjoyed the so called 'holiday' I'm having now at all. Everyday it's just the same old routine... well, most days... wake up, rot, and off to SW in the evening.. And there's classes at HK during weekends. I seriously neeed to get a life. urmz, dunno whether i should say this, but to be honest, i don't like goin there at all. Everytime I go there, I'll have to face what I fear most: the truth. Haha, guess nobody understands what the heck I'm writing in this post.

Haiz, I shouldn't be complaining. There's many people out there who's facing a lot of troubles, many people with lots of sh*t to deal with. And here I am complaining my a*s out. Should be glad that I'm not facing any problems right now since I can't even deal with myself. (what?) Haha....

Ok, anyway, the musical EVOKE is really good. Enjoyed it a lot when I watched most of the programme during the rehearsal. It was rather entertaining :P But I still don't think it's worth 20/30 bucks =p

I wanna go home.
Peace.

Update!

Haha, actually this is not really gonna be something important. Just posting something here for the sake of posting. Been trying to sign in for weeks already. But the blogger home page just can't finish loading -.-" Did something to the com today and viola! But it's kinda late now so won't write anything much.

Have been kinda "busy" these few weeks as usual :P, although school still HASN'T START for me. Dang,I had a lot in mind that I wanna post about actually, but having mindblock now.

Hmmmm, that's all for now. Will try to update again next time. Properly... :p k, have a nice day then =)

-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU-

Don't bother.... =p

Don't bother reading this post if you have something better to do =p

Ha, I've no idea what to write too... Kinda stupid to talk about dance all the time :P Haven't been doin anything productive since I graduated... just wasting time and all. Sianz... Gotta start 'my engine' soon.

Hmmmm, since I'm not studying anymore, I have A LOT of time to think about stuff... Important stuff, useless stuff, crap .etc And feels like I'm lost now, not literally of course. Dang, life sucks =p

Just a childish, useless boy posting something here. Please ignore this post. Peace out.

Shi Bai Shi Chen Gong Zi Mu?

Wahaha,just managed to logged in yesterday only so decided to post another entry again... :p Sadly, it's gonna be somehow related to dance again.. G-A-Y!!!

Got a call from Studio Wu this afternoon, Caleb told me that I got through the hiphop audition... Yea!! look out for me in the upcoming production baby!! But it'll just be a small role I guess. Oh well, couldn't expect more. So I was like "what about the jazz audition?" He told me he's not sure but I could check my e-mail to find out. And so begins a whole day of anticipation... Haha..

Didn't get in for jazz =( So pissed off, at nobody but particularly at myself... Guess I just wasn't good enough. No wait, when was I ever good? Great... Will really have to work hard if I were to achieve something. But where to start? Haiz, Bu yao tiao wu le lah =p

There's also that hiphop dance comp that me and my so-called crew(JuzWhack) joined last saturday. Obviously we lost... Haha, what more could you expect from a punk with failure written all over him? Was REALLY down that day after the comp, went to toa payoh to meet our dancemates from Huikuan. Phew! Luckily Laoshi wasn't there. There's no way I could face her then... Skipping class and joining some bloody competition and coming back empty-handed. Haha, Boon, Engkiat and Ed were cheering me up, saying like "it's okay, we just join for fun","We only lost coz we're not there... yet"... there's more but I forget liao =p

Was ashamed to face her too. It just sucks that I had no good news to tell her. I really wanted to impress her or something ya know? Dang....

Anyway, it wasn't a really competitive comp anyway.. and the judges were peeps from Styles From Beyond, not some famous local instructor like Patrick Loo or something... Many crews that took part were just doin the common stuffs like krumping and wacking and all. And there were quite a few which obviously didn't have technical training. Haha, they were doin all the shaking stuff wrongly :P But who am I to criticise them -.-" Haha... There were good crews too and they won of course. They were REALLY good, we were WAY OUT of our league...

I guess I took a harder fall than the rest of my crew. You see, we lost partly coz we're not good enough as dancers... obviously. As for the other reason, haiz, don't really wanna talk about it. Y'all all would know... if you think about it. Haha, but don't waste your time thinkin..

It's gettin late... wanted to type more stuff actually but if I do, you would have fallen asleep reading all this crap :p

Oh ya, heard Chong tellin the sec 1s this today during class... "If you think you can do it, you can do it" or something like that. I thought this phrase was kinda encouraging =)Haha, will keep this inside my head....

I should end this post on a good note. Been crazy over chocolates recently :p Not the expensive ones though. Peeps out there, you all should try Cadbury boost, hope I got the spelling right :P It tastes absolutely urmz.... chocolatety!!! Wahaha.. K, gotta go.

Peace out.

Finally got a Google account

Wahaha!!! I can finally logged in. So sorry to the very few peeps out there who do visit this page... Couldn't logged in for a very long time coz I don't have a google account. And when I clicked on the link to create one, the page couldn't load. Today, I decided to go straight to the google website and create one. How silly of me to have not thought of that before -.-"

Hmmm, haven't posted anything for like 2 months? I had a lot of things to say but forgot everything liao. Feels like a lot of things has happened over these past 3 months... Guess that's because I'm not schooling anymore. Schoolwork is not something I have to worry over.... for now :p Haha....

Okay, so what to type here? Hmmm... I've been kinda down recently. Seems like dance is becoming something impt in my life.. and that sounds really, urm... gay. =p Haha... I feel that I really SUCK at it. Seriously... I know I've come this far through hardwork. I've got no talent and natural ability, and it's starting to piss me off. Since I'm starting to slack abit, I have nothing good left -.-" Gotta start my engine again soon. Oh ya, and I'm still not flexible -.-"

Actually there's a lot of things I wanna say bout dance(sound so gay again!) but I'm just too lazy... =p

Haiz, think I've changed a lot since the last post, but is it for the better I don't know. One thing that hasn't change is that I'm still kinda short -.-

Just realized I have very little friends. Since I graduated, I don't see my schoolmates anymore... Only people in this world that I have contact with are the peeps from Huay Kuan. Sianz...

Anyway, I'm kinda wondering exactly who visits this page. Have never advertised this blog anywhere so nobody really know this blog exists actually.. Haha, so can anyone who sees this entry post a comment here? Thanks, haha...

Oh yea, haven't written this words for a long time. So here goes
-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU-

Peace y'all.

Chocolates... =)

Been quite some time since I came back. And I still haven't brought the chocolates to HK; keep forgetting -.-" Oh well, maybe I'll eat them all myself :P

Was feeling like sh*t on Saturday. Happens all the time. The truth really hurts and the truth is... I suck. Was learning this Ming Jian Wu and I can't even get the dong li and the simple footwork right. Then there's that Shen Yun routine. That really s*cks man. No wait, I'm the one who s*ck :P Haha, and I was hit with the truth. *ahbish!

So I decided to practise more on Sunday. Went down early to practise. But I don't see any improvement. At least I can finally remember the routines. Haha, the modern dance was nice. Can see why they call it 'fun'. But it isn't easy... Will have to practise real hard to do better.

Have no idea why I'm posting all this here. Who gives a sh*t anyway? Haha, so here's some things that I found out. It's really true... Hope it helps you all as well in one way or another =)
1. You can't dance well unless you're carrying a positive attitude.
2. Work towards a goal to improve.
3. I suck. =p

Haha, the last point was crap... Gotta go. See y'all
- MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU -

In Da house

Yo! Guess who's back? Returned from Europe yesterday morning. Was kinda tired. Didn't sleep ,much on the plane. Hmmm... what to say about Europe? Nothing to say leh. Haha, guess I'm just too lazy to think. That's why =p

Europe is a very beautiful place. That's all I can think of. The buildings are all very hmm.... 'artistic'? Full of detailed statues and stuff. We went there just to visit ancient historical buildings and magnificent structures -.-" Haha, what's so fun about that? But it really is a beautiful sight. Nothing like what you see in Singapore. All you'll see here are HDBs and stuff -.-" No offence, LKY or any gov peeps I've offended =p

Haha, went to many places in Europe. And they all have nice churches. I wonder whether the churches in Singapore are similar to those there? Nah,, most of the churches there are ennormous...

Oh yah, my four-legged sister is back! Haha, miss her so much =) Looks like she has lost some weight. Are the 'hotels' ill treating the 'guests'. Haha, crap.

Year 2007 is here. Man, can't believe one year is gone. The years I spend in secondary school seems to end faster every year. Feel like sec 1 and 2 are the longest years I had and sec 3 and 4 are very short. Well, that makes everything even doesn't it? =p Haha, crap again...

No school for me tomorrow =p Wahaha...
Peace y'all.

-Euro Trip-

Yo. This would be the last entry for this year I guess... Going to Europe later; will only be back next year. Haha, actually, that is only like 11 days away =p

I have no idea which part of Europe I'm going -.-" Haha, I have to go really soon already so it's a bit difficult to think of what to type here now. Will try to get some souvenirs.. haha; and oh yes, my Laoshi gave me 50 bucks just to get key chains for her. Must buy those so called 'special' ones.

K, I guess that's it. Won't be dancing for this year le. Still got exam when I come back. And there's two more performances. I doubt I'll have enough time to practise when I come back. Si liao lah... :P Realized I like to say that a lot =)

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to everyone out there!!! =) and...
-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU-

Peace y'all.

A Quick One...

I need to wake up early tomorrow, will go sleep soon. Haha, hadn't update for quite some time already. Just realized that my previous entry was written on prom night. Dang, I didn't go to prom night -.-"

Dance camp has started. And the Min Jian Wu course has ended. Whew! Had been a stressfull four days; even though the routines were so darn easy to do and remember -.-" Think all of us will pass. Or at least the dancers from SHHK =P During this course I was reminded of a very important fact... It is easier to dance with a positive attitude than a stressed one. Yea, that's true. Maybe that's why I can perform better at a hip hop routine.

We(aka 7788) performed during the HK dinner last friday. Many of us forgot our steps. I did too. And I fell when I did that 'se7en' thang. But it was an okay performance I think. The people applauded and cheered when we did our last pose. My Laoshi praised me too; And that was the very thing I wanted out of this performance. I was so touched that I almost cried. But I was in the wrong atmosphere -.-" A lively song was played and everyone was clapping. Oh well...

Many people, including me, is so depressed this few days. What the he*l is happening man? Wish this whole sh*t will be over soon. Haha, can't believe I'm saying this. I'm feeling stressed now instead of during the O levels. Something is really wrong here =p

Peace y'all. And to everyone out there. Do cheer up! =)

What the?

Can't believe I'm saying this. I miss going to school... I miss the class assemblys, the principal's stupid morning 'speech'. I miss all the lessons I have in class. Come to think of it, I don't think I ever paid attention in class. 75% of the time. So sorry to all my teachers and myself too -.-"

Here's a short summary of what I normally do in class besides the 25% of studying. Hope my teachers don't see this =p

Miss Fu's Chem: Dreaming and sometimes sleeping
Mr Radha's A-maths: either sleeping or writing with my left hand
Mr Goh's E-maths: Dreaming or listening to the lesson(really!)
Miss Chen's Humanities: Trying hard to listen but always fall asleep halfway
Mr Foo's Physics: sleeping or trying to pay attention
Mrs Yeo's English: slacking or smsing
Mdm Leow's Chinese: trying VERY hard to pay attention

Don't know why I post this. It's all crap. Just ignore it.

Peace y'all.

It's finally over 2!

Guess what? It's the same heading as the previous! Haha... my last paper is finally over =) History's history. Bet I'll fail that paper. The chapter that I studied didn't come out. As for SBQ, they asked mostly contextual knowledge questions; and I didn't study =p

Anyway, I'm so glad my papers are all over. But I still have many things to do. Like.... I have no idea. The remaining days for this year are gonna be busy ones...

Crap, I still can't believe O levels is over. And I was just getting my engine started. Haha, too late. Hope I won't cry when I get the results. Probably get a decent below average grade =p

Just watched another one of LUSH's performances on youtube. Dang, can't believe they joined the Step Up competition too. That was like between the preliminary and finals of the chingay comp. But they did pull it off. They did a routine quite similar to the one they did for pulse hiphop, and I think they won for the step up one -.-" Talk about killing two birds with one stone.

Haven't watched Step Up yet. Think I'll catch it sometime next week, if there is time =p

-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU-

It's finally over!

Haha, just want to say something about what happened last sunday. We didn't win, as expected. Got the consolation prize... 200 bucks leh!!! It isn't much actually, once you divide it among the crew =p

Was damn nervous before we went up. When the first group went up, I was like, "Sh*t, we're gonna embarass ourselves." Luckily, we were not before the army boys group. They could literally OWN us. I guess we didn't threw our faces after all.

MATKinc. was doing their thang as usual. Those kids are damn good at what they're doing... Their instructor must have something for Michael Jackson. All his choreography have a piece of his song. And this time, one of the kids even did a MJ impersonation. Very cool. They got the 1st runner up.

For the open catergory, I was shocked when Blast Junior High won. Their dance was so rated 18. Haha, they were all dressed as nerdy students and they dance in a "horny" way. Actually this was an idea from SYTYCD. There was a routine by Shane Sparks which was like this. Even the song is the same. I thought they wouldn't win. But when I watch their dance again on youtube... man, they were really good! But it's hard to see their nice choreo, unless you're able to pull your eyes away from the mini skirts the gals were wearing =p

Oh ya, and here's a group pic we took. Let me explain why Boon and I had this stupid face. Engkiat told us to pull an ugly face for the shot. But in the end we kena pangseh. Oh well.... Jesper isn't in this pic as he had to rush to work =(

We had a great time. And it was a meaningful experience for me.

Pulse Hip Hop Knockout

The competition is on this coming Sunday at Ngee Ann Civic Plaza. Starts at 3. We'll just win the consolation prize but do come support!!! =P

Peace y'all.

Tick Tock..

Time's running out. Really need to chiong studies liao. E-maths and SS paper is on the coming monday. Dang, now I really need to work hard just to get a decent grade -.-" It'll take a miracle for me to get good marks.

I'm hopeless at humanities. Can't remember a single thing. Why??? Haha, maybe I should focus more on the other subjects.

Shit, I really need to pia liao. Stupid me. Always you xin wu li. Excuses only... *sigh. Been posting short entries recently. Too lazy to write anything crappy here. Oh yah, my com still view this blogger website in chinese. Is there any way to change it back to ang moh?

Suddenly my future is all clouded. And I thought I had everything planned out. Will think about it again after the exams.

Peace.

Hit The Floor

Guess what? I'm having my chemistry practicals later. Hope I can pass... Those stupid chemicals sure are confusing. This salt and that salt blah blah blah. Haha, if I can score well for titration I should be able to pass =p.

Oh yes, went to the preliminary round last sunday. It was great. Enjoyed my time there. There were many crews there. All of them knew each other lor. No fair. We were like strangers. Saw many familiar faces, although I don't know them. The Oschool and Studiowu peeps weren't there though =(

Oh yah, I can't believe I was intimidated by MATK.inc... I mean, they're just a bunch of little kids. But they won a lot of dance comps. And their costumes, so nice sia. And their crew's name was written on it. And their parents all wore the MATK.inc shirt too.

There were no cheers for us -.-" We only had 3 supporters. Haha, oh well...

Life's kinda boring nowadays... everyone's studying for Os. Nothing interesting to do. I should study too.

Peace y'all.

Boy at the corner...

I feel like I'm being left out in a lot of things. Life really sucks now. Everthing's in a mess. So f*cked up. What I really want now is to get through this exam period as fast as possible.

Study!!!

I don't know whether I'll get killed writing this entry. But I'll carry on anyway. Everyone knows that O levels are coming right? Sec 4E5N students should be studying right? And here I am joining this dumb competition -.-" Haha, and I'm not one of those inteligent students. In fact, I need extra help.

Thought I could cope with both at the same time. Like they got this night study sessions. I could study during weekends and like dance on weekends. But realized I couldn't do it. Too distracted.

To make things worse, I'm getting stressed over this comp. Like what the he*l? I should be worried about the exam instead. Even til now, the choreo is not fully out yet. It's not nice at all, done by me... With the help of some videos and of course Eng Kiat. Haven't really danced the whole item before and most of them are still in the process of getting the steps right.

Think I always expect too much from the crew. For Pikachu, I think I was being a jerk, complaining and all. Then there's NJRC, I was worse then, scolding people and all. Like, who the f*ck am I? Why am I shoating at them? Haha, so I realized that and tried to relax a little now. But I still get worked up all the time when we couldn't get the steps right. Haha, will work on that...

As for my studies, I really don't feel like studying. Something is wrong here. Die liao. Told Mdm Leow about it and she says die liao lor. Haha, kidding, I don't remember what she said but I'll try studying anyway.

About the comp... don't know what I was thinking. Joining at this crucial time. I always go around saying that you can get cash if you win. Hehe, but it was never about the money. Guess I just wanted to prove something. Prove to myself that I'm doing something that I can do. prove that I don't have to keep doubting myself. Haha, crap... But in the end, I still suck. So pissed off at ZuYou. Blo*dy idiot.

Think the reader would be asleep right about now. I'll write more about this next time. I should be studying. Haha, say only -.-" Got heart no power(you xing wu li)
yup, that's about it then...

Peace y'all.

Update!

Haha, I just came here for the sake of updating this page. Don't really have any idea what to write. Hmmm.... oh yes, I've started studying! I'm glad the school introduced these self study sessions. If not, I wouldn't have opened my books at all. Haha, can call it the "activation energy" to start the reaction.

-.-" I don't wanna write about anything related to studies. Like, who would be interested in that? I'm not =p Before I change the topic, I'll just like to say that I've revised a bit on chem and physics. And there was this mock chem paper 1 that I took a few days ago. Failed the paper even though I've been studying chemistry for the past few days. That really pissed me off.

Maybe I should stop blogging. I don't update regularly and all I post is bullshit. So what's the point of reading all this? Hehe, guess the reason I started a blog was because.... was because... well I don't know. Created this blog in sec2. Was crazy about HTML then. Kept playing with it. Now I don't really give a damn anymore. And yes, I still suck at "computerlogy".

Stupid entry done by a stupid person. I'll stop here then. Going to Overdrive tomorrow =) Wade Robson's gonna be there. Hope he puts up a good show; cost me 37 bucks to go watch...

-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU-

Funky Chicken

Haha, I'm just here to type crap. Even the title is just crap. Been browsing through some hip-hop videos on YouTube. See until sian liao. All so good de -.-" I think the Crip-Walk is kinda cool. Wonder if it's legal to do C-Walk in Singapore. Should be okay bah. Haha, imagine Singapore Ah Bengs doing C-Walk in front of other gangs =p.

Since I'm talking about Singapore, here's another thing I noticed. How come there are so many B-boys in Singapore and so few poppers and lockers? No fair; actually I've never seen someone doing popping and locking on the streets but I'm sure there are. Oh ya, I saw three B-boy crews in Woodlands. Here's where they usually hang out. 'Check them out' if you're free.
The shelter near Blk 523.
Outside the entrance of Civic Centre (the one near the library)
Causeway Point 6th floor

House is cool too. Their steps are so confusing. Never-ending walk. Oh... just remembered, I think House makes use of the body too. Dang, suddenly feel like I know nothing about dance. Actually that's true. I really know nothing. Oh well... -.-"

Wasted 15minutes typing this dumb entry. Should go study. Got Chemistry paper on Monday. When two people are quarreling and yelling at each other, it's an exothermic reaction =p Hope I can at least get a decent grade. Or maybe like what Miss Fu told me, I should fail badly to get a wakeup call.

Gotta go. Do check out hip-hop battles. They're different from performances. Go Youtube can find liao.

Peace.

Jung Ji Hoon- Bi aka Rain

Haha, I'm just here to post something short and stupid =P I'll miss Steve Irwin, though I wasn't a loyal fan of him. I respect him for his love and appreciation for wildlife, especially reptiles. He's a great man...

I hate Rain. I admire Rain. I'm jealous of Rain.

He can sing. He can dance. He has the looks. He has a sexy body. And he's rich too I guess. Now that's what you call a full package. No fair... -.-"

Check out this video. It's really nice, although I don't understand a single word in the video. It's in korean.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ISGF6JSE9Mw

Peace y'all.

It just....

Sucks to be me

I made myself who I am today. So I'm to blame.

I've tried my best =)

Tomorrow's the big day. My first shot at a Hip-Hop dance; besides Que Le Chong Bai. Wish us luck!

Ash: Go Pikachu!!!

-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU-

Late at Night...

It's like 3.10am in the morning, and I'm still here. Haha, I was doing my testimonial. Didn't know it'll take this long. It was kinda short at first, so I added all kinds of crap in. Seems so strange to write your own testimonial. It's like you're braggin or somethin :P Anyway, I'm done with it. Yay!

Things didn't run so smoothly during the Teacher's Day Rehearsal. The music couldn't be heard clearly on stage, even with the two modular speakers. And the sound that came out was so... weird. Haha, but we still did okay, I guess. Khairul's group is so cool! They're singing this song called Truely Deeply Madly by Savage Garden. Even til now, I still can't remember their band's name. Should be Classified Roots of Ravenelli Art; or something like that.

Then at the end of the Rehearsal, we were told that we can't use the song My Humps coz somebody (probably a teacher) found the lyrics a little offensive. I was like @#$%^&! That was the first 55 seconds of our item. And we choreographed it. 90% original; and they're just taking it away. Was so annoyed then. I have to watch my temper when I'm pissed off. I realized that I don't show people respect when I'm angry. Gotta get rid of this habit before I get myself into trouble.

So now we are left with two options. Either we find another song to replace My Humps or we start from It's Raining. Arg... Damn that dumb-ass who complained that my humps was offensive. He/She's ruined what we have worked so hard for. I'll find out who that person is and he/she is gonna have to give me an explanation. I mean, this wise-ass hears this song and just complains. Did he/she spare a thought for us? What about our dance routine? What about all the time we spent to practise this item? Arg, so pissed off. Funny how I call him/her dumb and wise at the same time :p

The thing is, this dance means a lot to me. Haha, the time I danced Que Le Chong Bai was important too, but that was different; somehow. When I first heard about the Teacher's Day auditions, I was really excited. First thing that came to my mind was,"yeah, final opportunity" and "Hip-Hop". But then I was too chicken to join after that. Thought it was too bold. Coz I've never done anything like this before. Luckily, Shieyar and Beatrice asked me whether I want to join their group. Now is that a coincedence? Dunno, but I'm sure glad they asked. Wouldn't have the balls to take part myself if they hadn't asked. So that's how we ended up here, our crew performing in this concert. It may not be very good, but I'm giving it my best. I want it to be something good, something that would blow the audience away. Now that's what you call bold :P

I dunno why I'm typing this crap, but I'll go on anyway. "Strong the power of the darkside is in you" says Yoda. Here's an evil thought that I have recently. Might give a bad impression of me :P Teacher's day is celebrated after ACEs day right? And for the exercise, the school will be doing a hip-hop routine. Maybe they'll be like "wow, this is so cool..." and when they see our item, they'll go "man... we suck." Haha, evil right? -"Such thoughts are very unbecoming of a Jedi" I must be really tired. That's why I'm writing all these crap.

Gosh, realized I still have an English assignment to do. Oh, to hell with it. Gotta get some sleep.

-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU-

I'm Not Okay.

Haha, been busy these few days and was rarely online. So here I am now :p I have no idea what to write. Prelims drawing nearer and nearer. The english paper's starting nect tuesday!

I've sat through my physics practical already. Didn't went so smoothly. Section A was quite simple; if you know your circuits chapter well. But I don't, so I has a really hard time doing it. For Section B, it is the chapter on reflection or refraction. It should be an easy experiment, just have to follow the instructions. But when I reach the part where I have to take another four readings, I could not interpret what the question wants me to do -.-" So I sat there and wasted a few minutes. Then I decided to hell with it and took some readings somehow. When I was done, I went on to the next part and #!$%^&, I understood what the previous part wants me to do. Five minutes left. I took three more readings and that's all. Haha, didn't touch the graph at all.

We bought a pair of pants for the upcoming performance. From S&K, there was a sale. It cost us(Jus, Boon and I) 25 bucks only! It was $49 originally. Cheap right? Or so we thought. The next day, Bea and Alene bought the same pants for 15 bucks -.-" Dang....

Oh ya, there a Teacher's Day rehearsal today. I'm nervous... Sh*t, I got Chem practicals today and I 'm still worrying about the rehearsal. And why am I still here? Gotta go study. See ya. Good luck to everyone taking the practicals!

We're In!!!

Hihi, haven't updated for quite some time. Been busy recently. I just wanna say that we're in!! Haha, went for the teacher's day audition today. So nervous. But we pulled through somehow. Though it may not be as good, we're still good anyway :P Haha, all our practices has paid off. We'll work hard for the performance :)

Watched a bit of the Superband finals just now. Milo Ice won! But I prefered SOUL :P SOUL is so cool. Ishi so talented, can sing and dance.

Changed the song here. Thought vindicated was kinda boring after listening to it for like a hundred times... This new song is a lot funkier! By B2K de. Omarion was in that band. I dunno whether it can load fast. Coz this song is loaded from a link. Not I upload one :P Couldn't find this song -.-"

That will be all for now. Peace y'all.

What would you choose?

Haha, I just wanna post something crappy here. You'll probably not understand half of what I'll be writing. k...

I had my English oral prelim on wednesday. It really sucks. Actually I suck. Haha, the examiner was Miss Haslinda. How lucky of me. I couldn't do the picture and conversation part well. And I suck at reading. But I think I'll pass. Who wouldn't? :P

I made two decisions that day. It's nothing important though. It just reflects the kind of person I am. The first decision I made; well, it shows that I have put my priorities wrongly. How foolish... -.-" Haha...

The second decision I made... eh.... I have no idea what it shows. Did I do the right thing? Am I self-centered; or am I wise? Would it have been better if I picked the other option? Arg, this is bullsh*t.

Peace y'all.

3 Days Down

This is gonna be a long one, I think. Haven't been posting here for quite some time already. So here goes... Let's see. Well, it was my chinese birthday last tuesday. I went home after dance practice and my mum prepared mian xian for me. Haha, I must say, it tasted quite good =)

Then on wednesday, I went for dance practice.... again. But I'm glad I don't have to go for focus studies. I HATE focus studies; it's very hard to study when you're not interested -.-" After practice, went to Causeway Point. And I spent a lot of cash today. Well, not really a lot but my wallet sure has gotten a lot lighter.
Ate Long John Silver: $4.90
Bought ear ring: $2.50
Pia arcade: $4.00
Total: $11.40
Haha, and that was how my savings for three days was spent -.-" Took bus 901 later and I decided to go pick up my ride instead of going home. I finally got my bike back!!! The body and the chain are freakin rusty. And both the tyres were flat. But I'm just glad I got my ride back. I pushed it all the way from Vista Park back to my crib.

By the time I reached home, it was already reaching 11 I think. Can't really remember what I did after that but I started doing my english assignment at 12. Stopped at 1am and tuned in to 100% Entertainment(Yu Le Bai Fen Bai). It was really exciting. They had a freestyle rap battle. In chinese of course. But there was a part where Jason and Wilbur switched to english and damn were they good! Xiao Zhu also rapped a little in Thai. So funny sia! But his 'england' is not very powderful =p

Today was a crappy day. Study 24/7. After school still got focus studies for Social Studies. Thanks to my mentos, I managed to stay awake throughout the day =) After that, Ah Boon and I went to Eng Kiat's house to watch 100% Entertainment and also.... The Fast and the Furious: Tokyo Drift. Great movie. Most of the stunts are real. Very little CGI.

I guess that's all for now. If you like freestyle rap, do catch this movie 8 Mile. Lots of rap battles. Haha, gotta go.

Peace.

Chinese Oral.

Went for my O level Mother Tongue oral last friday. Felt very nervous then -.-" Think I failed the conversation part :P No idea what I was saying. Haha, very late liao... going to ZZZ.

Vindicated.

Yo. Added some music to my blog again. Vindicated by Dashboard Confessional. This was the theme song for the movie Spider-Man 2 (my one and only hero :P). I had this song here a long time ago. But I kinda lost it when I changed the freaking layout. And somehow I found it again. Put this song coz the file was small and easy to load. Only bad thing is the quality sucks.

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated

{Chorus}
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye

And rendered me
So isoloated, so motivated
I am certain now that

{Chorus}

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away (3x)
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away (4x)

{Chorus}

Hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

I can't get the song to repeat. So if you want to listen to the song again, just refresh this page =) Enjoy.

Money...

Haha, whazzup!? Very sianz so decided to post something here lor. I bought some new stuff recently. Bought a new CD yesterday. The 'Take the lead' soundtrack. Haha, also dunno why I bought it. Maybe coz I kept hearing the take the lead song by 'Bone Thugs N Harmony' That's a very funky song by the way. Cost me $18.95 -.-" And there's only 12 songs in it. I lied to myself saying "it's worth it" a dozen times before I'm convinced to buy it...

Went to Queensway shopping centre with my momma today. Bought new shoes =) Old School type one. 'Adidas Superstar 2'. A very common model -.-" Got 15% discount :P Of course my mum was the one who paid for it...

After that, went home ate dinner then shower lor. Now here I am wasting time when I should be doing my homework. No!!! Holidays are almost over. And I was just starting to enjoy myself -.-" Haiz, guess I'll have to wait til after O's to really relax. Oh yes, I haven't revised anything yet :P

Peace.

Man... this is bullsh*t

Nothing much to say. Life's been very boring recently. And I haven't touched my homework yet. Besides that, I feel that I have nothing else to do. Sometimes I don't even feel like playing games... How weird. Haha, for dunno what reason, I enjoy shooting off the heads of the enemies in Time Crisis 2. Like sadist sia :p

I've no idea what's happening to me recently. Feel so empty. Like something's missing... ??? Like what the he*l?

Oh yah, one more thing. Urmz, dono how to say leh. I kinda forget how to 'dance' -.-" Think this happened a few weeks after the Jan performance. After that, I haven't been "keeping it real" (if ya know what I mean). Everything is just... is just a little sumthin. Haha, even I myself don't understand what I'm saying at this point. Like typing some kind of foreign language lidat.

Here's something for you peeps out there to think about... It's like the chicken and the egg :P Does music come first or does dance come first? Obviously many people would say music come first. Like what Michael always says 'Music inspires dance' So whenever you're dancing, do ask yourself... 'What are you doing?'

Some stupid post eh? Haha... Oh yah, watched 'SYTYCT' on monday. Nick can really spin, damn... And Jamile should be complimented too; coz popping is some difficult sh*t. K.... gotta go.

-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU- :P

Just another Day...

A great day spent indeed -.-" Didn't do much today. I'm just typing all this for fun. Don't bother reading if you have something better to do.

Went to school at eight as usual. Lesson was boring AS USUAL. Ate lunch after that and went for my dental appointment. The dentist power sia; cleaned my teeth so much that my lower jaw was hurting like siao.

After that, went for CCA lor. Man, I REALLY gotta practise the fan dance more, coz I totally sUcK. CAn't catch up and keep forgetting the steps. Haha, So anyway, went to watch the 'competition' after that. Apparently there was no competition -.-" 'Dance Xplosion' took place on the day before. Sianz! And I even called some friends along... -.-"

So sorry to those who went :P K.. gotta go. See ya.

Hoildays?

Whazzup!? Here's a very short one... I just wanna complain. Haha, as you all know, it IS the june holidays for us pri/sec/jc students. No need to go school... =)

But the problem is, I've been going back to school from monday to friday! It doesn't seem like much of a holiday to me. I'm still flooded with homework. But that's probably because I never touch them at all :p

Done. Over and out.

Cure for an itch?

Whazzup!? Went to watch X-Men 3 just now... Great movie. Kinda disappointing though, Scott(Cyclops) and Xavier died early in the movie. Haha, guess what, Stan Lee made an appearance in the movie -.-" He appears in almost all the marvel movies. In spider-man 1 and 2, I think he was a citizen fleeing while Spidey is fighting. In Fantastic Four, he's a postman. And in this movie, he's just an old men living near Jean Grey. Haha, he was holding a water hose and all the watter was flowing upwards...

But it was a nice movie. Those who haven't watch it should watch it too =)Oh yeah, my shooting skills have kinda improved! Haha, today, well actually yesterday; I completed Time Crisis 2 with an accuracy of 85.7! First time sia! A1 somemore:p As for Time Crisis 3, I managed to reach the part where you have to fight 'Wild Dog and Wild Fang' Haha, gotta stop playing man.. going to get addicted soon :p -TRIGGER HAPPY-

K... enough crap. I had my O level MT paper on Monday. I think I did ok. Just like how I did for the mock exam papers; which means I would either get a borderline pass or in the worse-case... FAIL. Then again, no use worrying now. Must focus on the other subjects. Nah, who am I kidding? Holiday! I'm gonna play 24/7. And sleep like no one's business...

What else? Oh yeah, I haven't gone for dance practices for a long time (Study for chinese mah) Don't think I can catch up liao. Missed so many things. Sian, it's gonna be he*l on Sat and Sun -.-" I guess that's about all for now.

-MAY DA FORCE BE WITH YA-

Just som crap

Saturday. Perfect day for studying. Nah...

Didn't go for dance practice coz my mum wants me study for the upcoming exam. So boring lor :p That's why I'm here to post some nonsense. Think I'm gonna fail my Chinese paper. I didn't do well for the MT Mock exam papers. I got borderline passes and a failure -.- So why am I still here? Gotta go study. See ya later :P

Good luck too all 4E5N students y'all. =)

Dinner...

Yo. I woke up early this morning :) Nothin much to do so I decided to come update this page lor. There ain't much to say. Had a very boring life recently. Oh yeah, yesterday was my grandma's birthday!

We went to Novena Square for dinner. Ate at some chinese restaurant. Luckily, my grandma has only three children; my mum and two older brothers. So it isn't really a big group. We occupied two tables only :P

After that, we all went to one of my uncle's house. His crib is so damn cool! Four storeys high! And there's a basement too! So rich sia... my uncle and cousins used to live above us (9th storey) :P Well.... My parents, uncle and aunt played mahjong as usual. Then my older cousins kai duo yi tai and started too -.-" My grandma sat there and watch. Haiz.. I still don't really know how to play mahjong. At 12+ we went home. >>>>>

Sh*t... O level MT Exam is around the corner. Got mock exam next week. So f*cked up. If I had the guts, I'll probably skip school for a few days :p Oh yeah, I'm gonna complain. I totally suck at chinese. Think I'll fail my oral. I couldn't say anything in the conversation part. And for paper 1, sometimes I don't even understand the question. Damn.

Haha, one more thing, I've been wearing braces for about 1yr 2mths already. When can I take them off? Sianz, some of my friends are free of it already :P Oh yeah, and there's another word for braces too. Don't know whether it's real. Grillz. That's what Nelly calls them. Grillz... :P

I'm crapping -.-" Great news.. I finally deleted all the comments =)
Peace.

The good and the bad

Yo! Back again :p I haven't deleted all the comments... Will do it next time. Hmmm, I realize that I don't come here very often -.- Other people blogs almost everyday. And I only update this page like once a week lidat only... Haha, too lazy mah.

Anyway, watched 'So You Think You Can Dance' yesterday. Allen and Snow were out! So sad... Oh well... Someone has to go. Ryan and Snow's performance wasn't very good I think. Like no Moi Qi lidat :P But Ryan's B-boy moves were awesome! Like what Dan says, "bad-ass" Haha, Snow and Allen so poor thing. They were the bottom three for all three weeks -.-"

I've received most of my papers back. I got an A1 for E-maths! English also not bad. But I suck at all the other subjects...
English:B4
MT: D7
A-Maths: F9
Combined Humanities: F9
Physics: F9
Chemistry: C6

Haha, oh well... better work hard for O Level :p Haiz... sian. Gotta go. See ya =)
-MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU-

Deleted.

Hey, I've deleted all the comments from one of the entries le. So tiring. Had delete each comment one by one. So you can imagine how many times I clicked the mouse -.-"

Dang... my blog's in a mess. Flooded with these comments. Haiz, too lazy to delete the rest of the comments. Think I'll do it next time... See ya and have a nice day.